surprisingly calm??
sometimes it feels like life is so crippeling lately. Like im constantly tripping over my own feet, ideas, feelings...
Other times i can take a step back, take a deep breath, and remember that im only human. that everythings okay, and it isnt the end of the world..
it still sucks... you get your heart broken only to find out hes sleeping with one of your friends...
and i dont know why im even having a civalised conversation with him even though i swore him to the deepest depths of hell, and vowed never to speak a word to him, so maybe he would feel bad, or realise how bad he hurt me.
Nope...
Im putting on my big girl face. Im burrying every bad feeling because even though i hate him. i dont. i cant.
why does everything have to be so complicated. why cant i find someone who cares.
scratch that.. why do only the creeps seem to care?
ah fuck
Other times i can take a step back, take a deep breath, and remember that im only human. that everythings okay, and it isnt the end of the world..
it still sucks... you get your heart broken only to find out hes sleeping with one of your friends...
and i dont know why im even having a civalised conversation with him even though i swore him to the deepest depths of hell, and vowed never to speak a word to him, so maybe he would feel bad, or realise how bad he hurt me.
Nope...
Im putting on my big girl face. Im burrying every bad feeling because even though i hate him. i dont. i cant.
why does everything have to be so complicated. why cant i find someone who cares.
scratch that.. why do only the creeps seem to care?
ah fuck