Hi
It's been so long I don't recall how long.
Nothing too big for updates.
I'm living my life and some days are better than others. Life is like that isn't it everyone? I'd say on average things are getting a little better but it's frustrating sometimes and I still feel very lost for what next when I think too far forward. That larger society and the climate are kind of a mess is interesting because I don't feel as much pressure to plan or do things future wise.
Super miss some people occasionally but not much I can or would do about those in the same breadth. There's a few things I'd like to do event/visit place wise that might be fun but they are a bit of a trip and I don't really get to do shit frankly. I do get out a bit and been slightly sociable but still don't want Covid so limited way.
Dogs suck up most of my time and now mom's not watching them for me I don't get a break. It's fucking exhausting some days especially when it's super cold. I get to put on and take off several things and run up /down stairs several times a day at all kinds of intervals because dog acts like she has to shit or just sits to inches from me panting instead of sitting somewhere cooler. They both sit there watching me eat ....it's like I have no free time or personal space. Don't have time to do laundry , make lunch, take a shower ,etc etc some days (too many days). In their defense it's probably not that great for them either.
Son of a fucking bitch is my dad exactly as stupid irritating as my mom used to complain. Guy literally filling freezer(s) don't throw nothing out. Three fucking bags of half eaten fries ... also there is old soup from mom/restaurant but like again don't throw nothing out. He says shit about feeding it to the dogs like fuck no. He also one that walked my dog when I was gone and said not to. . . like he's a fucking asshole.
Like one day literally talking to him about breading and stupid goes to store and just gets some. Like literally said I don't do breading but there's fish in there. He don't cook things except to over cook them by the way...... It's stupefying unless he's purposely taking up space and being annoying. I ain't got time for his bs. The space thing is like.... like mom he do the garbage so limited in a way on what I can toss unless I transport it or hide it (limit to size ) in garbage. It's been a lot cleaner from me organizing surprisingly not even tossing that much. Found more pieces of my broken Christmas ornament by the way. Not sure if I should glue those to the board too. It's been cathartic to go through things and find a few I like and see progress of that room getting cleared/things being fixed or at least cleaner.
Literally sat and cleaned an old rubber maid clothes basket for the towels/couch/chair cover to sit in. People joke humans legacy will be plastic but take it from me that plastic could be used usefully. Wood rots , metal rusts, a lot of things discolor (including some plastic) but plastic was /is easy to clean. It was sitting there with like an old toy car/old sheet that was covering (Gran sewing machine maybe?)... there's two that are a bit broke and need glue or duck tape/something to fix them but overall fine if I don't either.
Also found some details out that were interesting but personal nothing interesting to anyone else reading.
going to make a new year just resolution to just take care of myself first and better although i have made an effort to enjoy the occasional things and that's been super nice but as a day to day thing it's like need effort