What Have I Gotten Myself Into?
So, last year, I came up with this supposedly BRILLIANT idea that I got into motion.
A Harry Potter Cruise. I thought it would be cool to see who would be up for it, and I figured I might get about 30-50 people to go with me.
Oh, Pattie, SOOOOOO pretty!
Good grief!
So, after only 3 of my friends are signed up, and 120 people that I have never met have signed up, I have realized I'm WAY over my head!
And maybe it wouldn't be so bad if
A) I had even a fraction of the staff that the cons have
B) I had even a slight bit of common sense to charge a small registration fee
C) I wasn't a total FUCK-UP and didn't make my life into a regular soap opera, thus not WANTING to focus on Wrock the Boat
Here's what I'm dealing with:
~Carnival giving me the run-around about what I can or cannot do. They change their minds every time I talk to them, and I haven't gotten ONE DAMN THING in writing from them. So, I never know if what we had discussed the last conversation still holds the next time.
~Lack of computer intelligence to run the website, thus pissing off ALL the guests because there were no updates. BRILLIANT!!!!!
~No monies to even GO on this cruise myself, but I'm kinda backed in a corner, now, huh?
~The people demanding to know what is going on....look above if you don't have a clue why I haven't been more on the ball.
~The bands not being able to sell merchandise on the cruise, so me having to figure out HOW they are going to make any money before/after the cruise
I want to crawl into a cave and disappear, folks. No, really. You have no idea how depressed I already am, and knowing that I've fucked up on the whole organizing of this cruise because I was so caught up in my depression and life's going-ons makes me even MORE depressed.
I can't believe I haven't tried to kill myself. I really can't.
Maybe that will come DURING the cruise.
"Is that Pattie pretending to be Rose from Titanic?"
"No, that's Pattie REALLY trying to drown herself."
I can't take this anymore.
And it's too late to have anyone else do anything for me.
STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID
I just needed to vent. Thank you for listening. And please, no "I told you so"! Don't make me feel worse than I already do. You really don't know how much this cruise thing is making my brain ache and brings tears to my eyes.
I just want it over and done with, and then I can forget it ever happened.
Thank you
A Harry Potter Cruise. I thought it would be cool to see who would be up for it, and I figured I might get about 30-50 people to go with me.
Oh, Pattie, SOOOOOO pretty!
Good grief!
So, after only 3 of my friends are signed up, and 120 people that I have never met have signed up, I have realized I'm WAY over my head!
And maybe it wouldn't be so bad if
A) I had even a fraction of the staff that the cons have
B) I had even a slight bit of common sense to charge a small registration fee
C) I wasn't a total FUCK-UP and didn't make my life into a regular soap opera, thus not WANTING to focus on Wrock the Boat
Here's what I'm dealing with:
~Carnival giving me the run-around about what I can or cannot do. They change their minds every time I talk to them, and I haven't gotten ONE DAMN THING in writing from them. So, I never know if what we had discussed the last conversation still holds the next time.
~Lack of computer intelligence to run the website, thus pissing off ALL the guests because there were no updates. BRILLIANT!!!!!
~No monies to even GO on this cruise myself, but I'm kinda backed in a corner, now, huh?
~The people demanding to know what is going on....look above if you don't have a clue why I haven't been more on the ball.
~The bands not being able to sell merchandise on the cruise, so me having to figure out HOW they are going to make any money before/after the cruise
I want to crawl into a cave and disappear, folks. No, really. You have no idea how depressed I already am, and knowing that I've fucked up on the whole organizing of this cruise because I was so caught up in my depression and life's going-ons makes me even MORE depressed.
I can't believe I haven't tried to kill myself. I really can't.
Maybe that will come DURING the cruise.
"Is that Pattie pretending to be Rose from Titanic?"
"No, that's Pattie REALLY trying to drown herself."
I can't take this anymore.
And it's too late to have anyone else do anything for me.
STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID
I just needed to vent. Thank you for listening. And please, no "I told you so"! Don't make me feel worse than I already do. You really don't know how much this cruise thing is making my brain ache and brings tears to my eyes.
I just want it over and done with, and then I can forget it ever happened.
Thank you