Fuck you American Welfare system!
I have been stuck in the house for almost 6 full days! It really sucks not having a car and money. It has been six months since my dr has disabled me for my depression problems. I have not had any income other than what I get from Strange Daze from some of the shows. I am so greatful that my parents own the house that my apartment is in otherwise I don't know what I would do. I really have learned how fucked up the welfare system is. I mean I have had no income for over six months and I can't get food stamps?!?! I mean what do I need to have 10 kids or be from Mexico or Somalia? It is really hard to understand why I would not qualify for any assistance other than my Medical Assistance.
I am kinda stuck in a catch 22 situation. If I were to try and go back to work I would lose my Medical Assistance and would not be able to afford my medications. And I know that without them I would end up being commited. There are alot of people that ask me "Why do you need medication to make you happy"? Its not a matter of being happy it is to balance out a chemical inbalance that I have no control over other than to take medication. I have been on many meds in the past 12 years and not on a continual basis. I have come to find that I am a better person when I am medicated and thats what I have chose to do.
I have already been denied Social Security Disability once but that is pretty much standard procedure I am told. So I sent in an appeal and I am still waiting to here back. I am just getting so discouraged because I feel so bad that I have put my parents in a bad situation finacially. Both my parents are on disability, my Mom for chronic pain and heart failure and my Dad for mental health issues. I have had to rely on them for food and for all my daily needs like toiletries and even to pay the co-pays for my meds. I feel so bad because there have been times that there is literally no food in the house other than beans or rice. People may have noticed that I have lost alot of weight in the past few months. This is the reason why. I worry about my health lately because I don't think I am getting enough nutrition. My teeth have even been breaking and I think I have a ton of cavities due to lack of nutrition. One good thing is that there is a program called VEAP a food shelf here in bloomington that provides 5 days worth of food once an month. So at the beginning of the month I am able to get some groceries of my own.
I guess like they say "what doesn't kill ya just makes you stronger". But this is just getting rediculous. I am so pissed off with the government when it comes to assistace. I was born here, paid taxes, and I cannot get any other assistance that people that just immigrated here get. It is just not fair. When I have gone to the welfare office place downtown there is nothing but foriegnors there. I am not saying I am am against people getting help but I think that this country should take care of its own first. One other example is when I was getting food from a food shelf there was a guy in his mid thirties I would say was told to go there to get food for his family of 6. I overheard that he had lost his job that he had for a long time. When they checked his ID they said sorry but you are 1 block out of the area we service. He asked if where should he go then? They just shrugged their shoulders and said sorry.... All the while there was a family of Mexican females that looked like they were family anyways filling out their paperwork. All of them had Mexican ID's so not citizens and they were given tons of food. I felt so sick and discusted with the system as I saw this man walking to his car. You could see the dispair in his eyes like he was thinking "what the hell do I do now"?
Well this is just a little bit of what I have been dealing with in the past few months. If anyone knows of any other programs out there that I could use Please please let me know! I really want to aleviate as much burdon I have put on my parents. I will stop now since this is so damn long but will continue in the next blog.
I am kinda stuck in a catch 22 situation. If I were to try and go back to work I would lose my Medical Assistance and would not be able to afford my medications. And I know that without them I would end up being commited. There are alot of people that ask me "Why do you need medication to make you happy"? Its not a matter of being happy it is to balance out a chemical inbalance that I have no control over other than to take medication. I have been on many meds in the past 12 years and not on a continual basis. I have come to find that I am a better person when I am medicated and thats what I have chose to do.
I have already been denied Social Security Disability once but that is pretty much standard procedure I am told. So I sent in an appeal and I am still waiting to here back. I am just getting so discouraged because I feel so bad that I have put my parents in a bad situation finacially. Both my parents are on disability, my Mom for chronic pain and heart failure and my Dad for mental health issues. I have had to rely on them for food and for all my daily needs like toiletries and even to pay the co-pays for my meds. I feel so bad because there have been times that there is literally no food in the house other than beans or rice. People may have noticed that I have lost alot of weight in the past few months. This is the reason why. I worry about my health lately because I don't think I am getting enough nutrition. My teeth have even been breaking and I think I have a ton of cavities due to lack of nutrition. One good thing is that there is a program called VEAP a food shelf here in bloomington that provides 5 days worth of food once an month. So at the beginning of the month I am able to get some groceries of my own.
I guess like they say "what doesn't kill ya just makes you stronger". But this is just getting rediculous. I am so pissed off with the government when it comes to assistace. I was born here, paid taxes, and I cannot get any other assistance that people that just immigrated here get. It is just not fair. When I have gone to the welfare office place downtown there is nothing but foriegnors there. I am not saying I am am against people getting help but I think that this country should take care of its own first. One other example is when I was getting food from a food shelf there was a guy in his mid thirties I would say was told to go there to get food for his family of 6. I overheard that he had lost his job that he had for a long time. When they checked his ID they said sorry but you are 1 block out of the area we service. He asked if where should he go then? They just shrugged their shoulders and said sorry.... All the while there was a family of Mexican females that looked like they were family anyways filling out their paperwork. All of them had Mexican ID's so not citizens and they were given tons of food. I felt so sick and discusted with the system as I saw this man walking to his car. You could see the dispair in his eyes like he was thinking "what the hell do I do now"?
Well this is just a little bit of what I have been dealing with in the past few months. If anyone knows of any other programs out there that I could use Please please let me know! I really want to aleviate as much burdon I have put on my parents. I will stop now since this is so damn long but will continue in the next blog.