Alright alright, update time!
Because it's better than studying for my final tomorrow~ Go me? :D
First, stuff:
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
Make a list, post it to your journal...
and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.
1. Listening to music that lets me move away from whatever's stressing me out
2. Ooh killing stuff :o *leaves*
3. Writing something (er, for my pleasure... poetry/story)
4. Being out in nature/wandering around in some natural enviroment, away from people
5. Talking to the few people who I can be honest to and who I feel care enough about me to let me complain
I order these people to do the same:
1. keine
2. Jinxy
3. Nitty
4. Booshie
5. Angel
Right, so I got couples there and that's it. xD BASICALLY ALL OF YOU MH PEOPLE WILL DO IT, YES!
Anywho...
Classes are over for me for good, my finals are Monday and Wednesday. After that, I'm outta here. I still have like a week here to mosey around to packing and shit before my dad comes and picks me up.
I've been kinda rollercoastery when it comes to emotions lately, which is why I haven't really updated. Some days things just get to me, like the fact that I'm extremly worried about what'll happen when I move back down to my mom's for a number of reasons (having to do with my ability to find a job or lack of one and how I'll get along with my mom, dad, and Heather, mostly). And some days I'm alright, but just ignoring the fact that I'm worried still. I know I shouldn't worry, but I just feel so helpless I guess. I need some confidence to be able to succeed at finding a job, and I don't have any. :/ What little I had seems to have gone poof thanks to Micah's selfishness, Heather's selfishness, the fact that my father never seems to have anything good to say about me, and my job at the Aggie I lost, those writing classes that overly-frustrated me about my writing skills, as well as the kick ass internship I failed to get. I've wasted a year trying to get over the last 3 things... and I guess I'm personally over them, but my confidence is still shaken for some reason.
Even aside from that, I'm starting to really get frustrated with both Heather and Micah... both of the ONLY non-family people that still care for me and are part of my physical life are starting to annoy the fuck out of me, and that's just depressing. :/ Micah isn't working (still) and is so currently obsesed with star wars that he doesn't bother trying to figure out why he isn't working or why I don't want much to do with him anymore, and Heather is busy making me feel guilty because I don't want to play once-a-week marriage counselour for and her boyfriend when they break up/get back together weekly (I really dislike the boyfriend anyways), meanwhile making all these plans for us when I get back because apparently I'm all she's got good friend-wise and she misses me like crazy. Is it bad of me to want to say "fuck off" to her when she asks what I'm doing over AIM for the 7th time that night because she's bored and I'm annoyed at her continiously asking when I haven't even changed what I've been doing? >_>
Sigh. I hate being angsty. :( I'm sorry. That's all that's really new with me though. :/ It's like, I've finally come to the point where I can say "alright, I'm tired of you people" instead of just saying "meh... I dunno..." and I can't bring myself to ditch them. :( I keep hoping Heather might be different whne I actually get down there and see her... maybe, who knows. :/
And I wonder if anyone can send me some confidence through the mail... hrm... would be nice. ;_;
*chooses mood* Oooh, buggy hamster eyes~
As far as RO goes... hrm, I guess things are fine. There's a lot of drama and shit, minor annoyances, yadda yadda, but they don't last long (not that they should, it being a game and all). For some dumb reason I'm able to work toward fixing what annoys me in the game, same with online... just... not in my physical life... I guess there's no way to go off and FA Micah to death when he pisses me off... Some people just never change. :(
First, stuff:
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
Make a list, post it to your journal...
and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.
1. Listening to music that lets me move away from whatever's stressing me out
2. Ooh killing stuff :o *leaves*
3. Writing something (er, for my pleasure... poetry/story)
4. Being out in nature/wandering around in some natural enviroment, away from people
5. Talking to the few people who I can be honest to and who I feel care enough about me to let me complain
I order these people to do the same:
1. keine
2. Jinxy
3. Nitty
4. Booshie
5. Angel
Right, so I got couples there and that's it. xD BASICALLY ALL OF YOU MH PEOPLE WILL DO IT, YES!
Anywho...
Classes are over for me for good, my finals are Monday and Wednesday. After that, I'm outta here. I still have like a week here to mosey around to packing and shit before my dad comes and picks me up.
I've been kinda rollercoastery when it comes to emotions lately, which is why I haven't really updated. Some days things just get to me, like the fact that I'm extremly worried about what'll happen when I move back down to my mom's for a number of reasons (having to do with my ability to find a job or lack of one and how I'll get along with my mom, dad, and Heather, mostly). And some days I'm alright, but just ignoring the fact that I'm worried still. I know I shouldn't worry, but I just feel so helpless I guess. I need some confidence to be able to succeed at finding a job, and I don't have any. :/ What little I had seems to have gone poof thanks to Micah's selfishness, Heather's selfishness, the fact that my father never seems to have anything good to say about me, and my job at the Aggie I lost, those writing classes that overly-frustrated me about my writing skills, as well as the kick ass internship I failed to get. I've wasted a year trying to get over the last 3 things... and I guess I'm personally over them, but my confidence is still shaken for some reason.
Even aside from that, I'm starting to really get frustrated with both Heather and Micah... both of the ONLY non-family people that still care for me and are part of my physical life are starting to annoy the fuck out of me, and that's just depressing. :/ Micah isn't working (still) and is so currently obsesed with star wars that he doesn't bother trying to figure out why he isn't working or why I don't want much to do with him anymore, and Heather is busy making me feel guilty because I don't want to play once-a-week marriage counselour for and her boyfriend when they break up/get back together weekly (I really dislike the boyfriend anyways), meanwhile making all these plans for us when I get back because apparently I'm all she's got good friend-wise and she misses me like crazy. Is it bad of me to want to say "fuck off" to her when she asks what I'm doing over AIM for the 7th time that night because she's bored and I'm annoyed at her continiously asking when I haven't even changed what I've been doing? >_>
Sigh. I hate being angsty. :( I'm sorry. That's all that's really new with me though. :/ It's like, I've finally come to the point where I can say "alright, I'm tired of you people" instead of just saying "meh... I dunno..." and I can't bring myself to ditch them. :( I keep hoping Heather might be different whne I actually get down there and see her... maybe, who knows. :/
And I wonder if anyone can send me some confidence through the mail... hrm... would be nice. ;_;
*chooses mood* Oooh, buggy hamster eyes~
As far as RO goes... hrm, I guess things are fine. There's a lot of drama and shit, minor annoyances, yadda yadda, but they don't last long (not that they should, it being a game and all). For some dumb reason I'm able to work toward fixing what annoys me in the game, same with online... just... not in my physical life... I guess there's no way to go off and FA Micah to death when he pisses me off... Some people just never change. :(