i just wanna break something....
I'm so angry.... no really, i am...
I'm tired of this relationship I seem to be having with my phone. I thought I was dating a guy but apparently we can only be with each other through the airwaves.... I mean, you'd think that if y ou love someone as much as you say you do, then spending time with that person is more important than just doin things for them. Because when you love someone you tend to believe that you are in love with the PERSON and not just the IDEA of the person. This doesn't make sense i know so let me spell it out...
My b/f is an over the road truck driver so clearly he's busy working all over the country. We've been together for over a year now and I've been able to cope with it until he started this new company back in october. Now instead of not seeing him for 2 weeks, I dont see him for 2 months! Yes I know its his job and yes I love him and I want him to do what he loves but when he doesnt make the effort to see me even if its only for a day...what do i do? i mean, he shoots down my ideas of coming to see him with over rational logic....he doesnt do anything spontaneous anymore!!! I mean, I'm a woman for crissakes! NOT A NUN!
Yes I know its hard for him to be on the road but he's not alone. He trucks with some buddies every now and then and he also travels with his dog...Me on the other hand...no. Im tired of being in a house by myself. I'm tired of goin out with friends and bein the fifth wheel but then I cant even meet new people because i'll feel guilty. And when I go to family events, I have to spend the entire time makin excuses and promises to family members that I can't really keep.
I know I sound really selfish but I'm tired of everyone puttin me on a back burner. I'm tired of being the expendable one. For awhile in our relationship it felt different...that he wouldnt be like everyone else ive tried to be close to....but i was wrong.
yeah im bein pitiful but i need to right now, just this once.....ok im done...night.
I'm tired of this relationship I seem to be having with my phone. I thought I was dating a guy but apparently we can only be with each other through the airwaves.... I mean, you'd think that if y ou love someone as much as you say you do, then spending time with that person is more important than just doin things for them. Because when you love someone you tend to believe that you are in love with the PERSON and not just the IDEA of the person. This doesn't make sense i know so let me spell it out...
My b/f is an over the road truck driver so clearly he's busy working all over the country. We've been together for over a year now and I've been able to cope with it until he started this new company back in october. Now instead of not seeing him for 2 weeks, I dont see him for 2 months! Yes I know its his job and yes I love him and I want him to do what he loves but when he doesnt make the effort to see me even if its only for a day...what do i do? i mean, he shoots down my ideas of coming to see him with over rational logic....he doesnt do anything spontaneous anymore!!! I mean, I'm a woman for crissakes! NOT A NUN!
Yes I know its hard for him to be on the road but he's not alone. He trucks with some buddies every now and then and he also travels with his dog...Me on the other hand...no. Im tired of being in a house by myself. I'm tired of goin out with friends and bein the fifth wheel but then I cant even meet new people because i'll feel guilty. And when I go to family events, I have to spend the entire time makin excuses and promises to family members that I can't really keep.
I know I sound really selfish but I'm tired of everyone puttin me on a back burner. I'm tired of being the expendable one. For awhile in our relationship it felt different...that he wouldnt be like everyone else ive tried to be close to....but i was wrong.
yeah im bein pitiful but i need to right now, just this once.....ok im done...night.