wtf?

[smultron]

i received an email today...from the player...it had pictures...of him...and of her...it made me upset...she is gorgeous...that is all i have to say about her...

and i keep telling myself that i am over this...that i have moved on...that i saw this coming or that i should have known better...

the truth is that i am not...i am still hurting...i feel that i made a fool of myself, and i am embarrassed...he will get back home and find those damn pictures i sent...*wishing i could take it all back*...now i have gone and started the negative self-talk...

by the way, i deleted the email...and the pictures...i cannot look at them...they make me sad...