when things run their course

[smu662]

me and buffi broke up today. it was mutual, and im actually really okay with it. i mean...i could tell it was going to end soon, and we both know we still care about each other, but it just wasnt going to work out. we just grew apart, and thats okay because thats just how human relationships go, especially when you're young. lol it was kinda funny...he was the one doing all the crying and i was like the stoic manly one comforting him. i swear ive always been the guy and hes always been the girl. but its all good now, ive pretty much declared by law that we HAVE to still be friends. i wont let him derek me. but i dont think he would want to anyways. im happy and im sad right now. im happy because i feel like a weight has been lifted and im almost reborn and it's summer and i feel a lot better, but at the same time, i will always miss being able to cuddle with him, kiss him after he's opened the car door for me or spend the night at his house. he's the guy i'll always remember. he was my first everything and i owe him so much gratitude. im glad it didnt end badly though...with like a big fight or a surprise or something. it will be strange to move on, but im determined to be optimistic, and be happy for what ive had, and what i will have.
xoxo
sawah