please forgive me all typing and contextual mistakes - i've just had a half bottle of wine on a completely empty stomach ( Read more... )

dieting sucks. once you're on a diet all i can think - things i'm not allowed to eat. once i'm off the diet i can't stop eating them and all supposed-to-happen effect of the diet is even worse then before this horror ( Read more... )

i'm in the wrong place in the wrong time. this travel was something i'd rather not happen at all. while i definitely needed to be back home, i needn't be here at all... and now i'm lost in the place i don't want to be. i'm lost in my own emotions and have no way of expressing them. or living through them. i'm spending too little time on my own as ( Read more... )

sometimes i think too much. and while there's hardly anything else here to do but think i'm looking through the situation over and over again. pffffff, what a vacation i'm having ( Read more... )

ok, things are getting more and more weird. tonight i've mailed a male friend of mine to ask for help. the thing is - he unfriended me on FB! and this, out of all things shocked me the most! true, i was considering this myself for a while, but then decided to go the adult way and leave it as it is. in the worst case i could always "hide" him. and ( Read more... )

we started off so nicely. he was pleased to see me, i was happy to see him. he was clearly interested, me in response to his interest - as well. we spent a lot of time together, talking, laughing, getting to know each other… and then something went terribly wrong ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since i've felt so miserable and in pain... there's a reason i close myself and don't let them in. to avoid this ripping, suffocating, eye watering pain of rejection ( Read more... )

this was a loooooong day :) started at 8.30 in the morning and not over yet at 1.54 am next day. yes, i'm backdating today, as this one still goes for saturday ( Read more... )

 i'm stressed now. seriously and with no clear prospect of getting it off. i can feel my shoulders being too high, reaching for my ears and muscles there are all tensed. i can give them a command to relax, but it lasts only as long as i think of it, meaning couple of secs. then things go back to where they were. i'm looking for a clear source of ( Read more... )

i have a high EQ. i was never tested, but that's not about tests anyway. it's about living... so how do i know? probably because i'm always monitoring my emotions, know when to act on them and when not. there's a long list of proof, but one of the most interesting phenomena is not living on the emotions as they come, but observing them and looking ( Read more... )