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well nothing has really happened in the last few days really..i still havent got out of my sickness though, and i still dont have my voice back, not even half way :S oo well, nothing big, well im glad i dont have to talk to certain people :) but anyways, oo i have been thinking of people that ive talked to and stopped, for whatever reason, but i see that i stil have my attachment problem, thus me even thinking to start talking to them again..especially for what, for them to just 'bother' me even more, what sense does that make..talking to people that dont add to you but rather take away from you..and its weird, ill go back to them but sometimes ill push people away that probably do care and want to be true to me, for what? because i cant trust them..how backwards is that, i guess its as the saying goes, it feels worse to hurt, but you'll like it better, and it appears that i have that really bad...hmm, and i didnt even mean to go on that the least, well anyways, oo i went to prayer last nite and it got a little intense, id talk about it but nine out of ten you'll be scared lol...well ill brb, i must go to class, and yes ill finish it, ive noticed that ive been forgetting to though..and i feel bad, gina was just here and didnt say hi :(!!!...well im back now two hours later, and i just heard that there is a MUN meeting after school, how nice...and i hope that you caught my sarcasm because i so dont want to go, i hate hearing about things last minute, well unless i love the thing that im hearing, and it is what i want to hear..and i wonder if that made any sense..well anyways, i guess since i dont remember really anything from yesterday ill just do today...i wake up this morning with a terrible headache..i think because my dad passes a new 'degree' lol and yes the word is decree, but he has an interesting way of saying thing, like kindergarden..kinnygarden, and chocolate, well that one is so pathetic i cant even attempt to spell, and this is what i have to go though, listening to his misprouncing of words that a stinking 2nd grader could say...oo please!!! but anyways..well the 'degree' was that i cant lay in my bed past the time my alarm goes off or press snooze so i can have just a little more time to sleep before i get uP (the reason why i do that is because, when i wake up, im one of those people that sleep so hard that i am utterly aware of what is going on...when i wake up, im not even woke..if that makes the least bit of sense) and just to show you how out of it i am, when i was going out with marybeth, i remember that i was 'suxbunded' from the phone and everytime id wake up in the morning, the very second id turn on the computer to talk to her..so anyways one morning i got up and i stumbled across the room and i remember turning off my alarm and for some reason i believed that the clock was my computer and every time i pressed the keys resetting my clock and alarm, i thought i was typing to her..and thats just one of the stupid things ive done when waking up, so thats why i like to lay in bad and recoup from sleeping so im at least remotely awake, but due to my father being a prick, i cant do that anymore, and thus this terrible headache today, that lasted the better part of three hours..oo but i LOVE my father though (andi know u got the sarcasm there lol)..but yes well this morning we made chicken cesare wraps..and a whole bunch of memories came up about that b**** i spoke of earlier with my whole clock/online thing..and people wonder why i dont love anymore and why sometimes i am so easy to dismiss people(even though ill hold on to the thought of them for almost forever) hmm i think the reason why everyone is because..yall end up destoying me, and now im thinking of peple that claimed that i should trust them and love them and that everything would be ok..lies, all lies..and this one girl that im talking to, allie, the lives in winnipeg and she likes me, something i dont get, i think that she just wants some loving/wild sex because um, i only talked to her like 9 days..how in the world do you sincerly want someone that early on, someone please explain that to me, because id so like to know! but anyways shes like oo please trust me yada yada yada, and i dont want to be rude but i should just tell her, the people thta beg me to rite on are the ones that do it later on..so if you ask me right on, its innevitable, but those few that just take life as it and down the line end up sincerly caring, those are the ones that i know i can trust..cough cough bek cough..but yes allie im sorry but no..moving on..i get to third and find out our test is tomorrow on chapterS! 10 11 and 12, should i even attempt on studying, because whats the difference of a 50 or a 30..is there really one? and omg!! in 5th, there was this group that re-enacted the first scene of Henry V using characters in the south..I SWARE I HAVE NEVER FELT TO DISCUSTED IN ANYTHING..MAKING US SOUTHERN PEOPLE LOOK LIKE THE BIGGEST FOOLS...F***, F***, F***..I SWARE I AM EVEN SWEATING THINKING ABOUT IT...HOW THEY DEPICTED US NOT BEING ABLE TO EVEN SPEAK ENGLISH, LIKE SOME ASIAN THAT POPS UP IN LOS ANGELES FOR THE FIRST DAY!!! But, im not going to even madder..lets just move on, well before i do, I PRAY THAT GOD SENDS MISERY TO THOSE THAT DID THAT FOOLISH MOVIE!!!!DARN FOOLS!!! oo and in 6th period, we are sitting there and we hear someone out in the hall yelling to some girl..take it off, and the girl laughing histerically, and the only thought i could think was that these two definitely needed a crazy british police beating (haha bek) because i sware, that was so distasteful, you can have your fun, but while im sitting here trying to get at least something out of the lesson or whatever..some people actually want to do relatively well! losers..i laughed though, because it was so stupid but whatever, and plus i think im just a tad-bit sickedned, distusted and actually pretty pissed off, and a little depression thrown in there, actually a little, lol i cant believe i told that lie, i mean tons, but that is fine i guess..but anywho, at the moment im in 7th and in about 5 mins ill be in 8th, and after the stupid meeting ill be home, so maybe ill be back around 345, maybe 4, so i guess thats it for now.....ok well im back here now..well at home finishing this..umm well nothing really happened that mattered but in 8th period we had a mock trial, and i sware, it got intense..it was to prove if destiny out rules personal chose or vise versa..i was on the personal chose side, and it was about a man that killed a friend in a drug dispute..but yes it was pretty interesting, and i sware some people need to learn procedures correctly because..cough cough zach and zachII cough, there is no tag teaming when you interigate someone on the stand..lol but that was just the bit of it, but anyways it