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ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
my head hurts so f-ing much right now!!!!!!!
i've been popping the pills! ahaha jk i cant do swallow pills...
but i DID have SIX (yeah thats right, SIX!!!) chewable pain relievers!!!!
yes! shweet... except it was funny cuz on the back of the bottle, it had a chart of how many u shud have for each age
and it only wen up to 11 years old
and that one was six pills
so i had 6 too even tho im 14!!!
ANYWAY>>>>>
gah life is poopy tonight! i'm just really stressed out about the play
and my head hurts
and my shin killed today
and it was SOOO f-ing hot out!
and i hated voice lessons today
usually they make me feel a lot better wen im having a sucky day cuz i love them and they're fun just working with me and my voice and andrea
but today was lame i felt like i sounded bad even tho i prolly didnt
and uuugggghhhhh i hate sports
and please i just wanna get this out so no one say the old "dont worry! ur good at other things! u dont even know how good u are blah blah blah" no offense i just dont wanna hear that right now
im not an atheletic person and i know that
i know my strengths are in singing and acting
but it still really sux
i wanna be good at sports
i want to be a wicked fast runner, and a wicked high jumper, and i wanna kick that soccer ball into the goal so fast it'll make ur head spin
but i cant
hard as i try, i cant
i feel like there's always someone who's better than me
but it's not their fault that they're good at it and im not
like in gym clas the other day
i LOVED doing the high jump even tho it KILLED my left shin bcuz thats the foot i jump off of
i loved it so f-ing much it was soooooo f-ing fun
just ask anyone who was thewir
i was like rip-rearing to go!
and i was good, too! not to toot my own horn...but, toot toot!
i mean, i got it evry single time without hitting the bar once
seriously, i did not hit the bar one single time
other people did, other people weren't as good as me in the beginning
others had to get used to it first
but not me i really took to it
anyways, i was doing great, and then i got to 3 feet 8 inches
i hadnt hit the bar once yet
so i run, and jump-
and i hit the bar!
but no worries, i have 3 chances to clear the bar so i can move up
so i jump again and miss
dont worry one mor leap, ill get it
i try to arch my back and REALLY push off hard on my left leg, even tho it hurts sooo f-ing much
and i miss
and i get back in line, and mr. moody says that i cant go again becuz i diodnt clear it in my 3 tries
i didnt realize thats wat u had to do
so i sit down
im so mad
katie did it just fine! katie gets to move up!
and mallory did it too
they both get to go up
but not me
i get left behind while mallory beats the girls gym record for high jump, and katie's only about 4 inches behind
but im a whole foot behind
they beat me
again
but i mean, it's really not their fault at all that they're goor at it
its totally not their fault they have this great talent for sports, and they're just built to do it
its not their fault at all
and why shud they feel sorry for me wen they're so good?
why shud i bring them down wen they're so up?
i shund't
so i try not to
but then i end up holding this all inside
and i break down one night on stupid hard math homework that i dont understand yet again
loves+kisse....ah, you know the deal.....