Sad
I'm home, its good to be home. We got back last night around 730ish and went and got food, Joe came over and we played some 45s and cribbage, it was fun. I made plans with Joe to go shopping on black friday with him and his mom, so that will be insane, but hopefully i can get some cheap christmas gifts.
So today was quite the eventful day...
Worked 7-4 at Pro Sports, was actually pretty busy, we only had 2 no shows and no cancellations and saw about 28 or so people today. It was alittle crazy because they just hired a bunch of new people and we were all there at the same time, they hired 2 athletic trainers, a new therapist, and then I was there and Justin was there, so pretty much we had to fight for stuff to do haha and most of the time I didnt have anything to do because they all were taking over.
After work came home and went to the nursing home to see my mom's godmother. I didnt realize how sad it ws going to be, shes in her late 80s and lives alone with her sister in a huge house, she got sick and had to go to the hospital. She wasnt able to go home because the house was too big and she was too sick, so they put her in the nursing home. It was really sad because I coudl tell she was upset that we came to visit her. All she kept saying was that she wanted her sister and that we didnt need to come out of our way to see her, and that my mom would love us if we were around. It was so sad, Shaundra started crying which made me get upset, but I tried so hard to not get upset. After we said goodbye, we left and i burst into tears and felt terrible because Dan was with me and probably felt the most awkward in the world. It made me realize that I havent lost anyone in my life since my mom and I never really did cope with her death well at all, sorta just put it on the back burner. Tonight made me think about a lot of things I didnt, like death and my moms death and being alone. I felt so bad for her that she was in this nursing home and all she wanted to do was be with her sister and she couldnt. It panged my heart because she did not want to die alone. Needless to say, Im pretty devastated.
After the visit, I had to take Dan back to Merrimack, so we drove up there and had dinner with his parents and nana. We then played some cribbage which I did so-so on, and just kinda sat around the table and talked alittle. It was nice, but I was getting extremely tired, so I came home and here I am. Ive been awake since 530 so Im really seriously considering going to bed.
So today was quite the eventful day...
Worked 7-4 at Pro Sports, was actually pretty busy, we only had 2 no shows and no cancellations and saw about 28 or so people today. It was alittle crazy because they just hired a bunch of new people and we were all there at the same time, they hired 2 athletic trainers, a new therapist, and then I was there and Justin was there, so pretty much we had to fight for stuff to do haha and most of the time I didnt have anything to do because they all were taking over.
After work came home and went to the nursing home to see my mom's godmother. I didnt realize how sad it ws going to be, shes in her late 80s and lives alone with her sister in a huge house, she got sick and had to go to the hospital. She wasnt able to go home because the house was too big and she was too sick, so they put her in the nursing home. It was really sad because I coudl tell she was upset that we came to visit her. All she kept saying was that she wanted her sister and that we didnt need to come out of our way to see her, and that my mom would love us if we were around. It was so sad, Shaundra started crying which made me get upset, but I tried so hard to not get upset. After we said goodbye, we left and i burst into tears and felt terrible because Dan was with me and probably felt the most awkward in the world. It made me realize that I havent lost anyone in my life since my mom and I never really did cope with her death well at all, sorta just put it on the back burner. Tonight made me think about a lot of things I didnt, like death and my moms death and being alone. I felt so bad for her that she was in this nursing home and all she wanted to do was be with her sister and she couldnt. It panged my heart because she did not want to die alone. Needless to say, Im pretty devastated.
After the visit, I had to take Dan back to Merrimack, so we drove up there and had dinner with his parents and nana. We then played some cribbage which I did so-so on, and just kinda sat around the table and talked alittle. It was nice, but I was getting extremely tired, so I came home and here I am. Ive been awake since 530 so Im really seriously considering going to bed.