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I took a rare captaincy opportunity yesterday to try a few things. One of those was to give little pommie paul a decent bowl. being a spinner he doesn't get a lot of chances and people tend to drag him when he gets hit. he got hit in his second or third over yesterday, and i felt the urge to drag him, but stepped on it and bowled him out. As it turns out i even started him on a seventh over...
He bowled quite well, and i think needs to have an aggressive captain to bowl with, one who sets him a good field.
Jinx started winding a few of us up yesterday, telling us that he was sleeping with one of the girls from the pub and all they do "is eat and root". My 'don't-want-to-talk-about-this' reaction was put down to jealousy by him, and while Paul & Silk had a better clue.
My current relationship doesn't seem to be much more complex than that, and the mere fact that i am spending so much time thinking about it, let alone the endless reams of paper, pixels and keystrokes devoted to it, means that there is a problem. Now she apologises that she will not be very sociable over the next six weeks while she concentrates on her uni work, and catching up with people.
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So... i guess i have to figure out what i want to do. Do i want to knock this on the head and look elsewhere, or do i want to sit it out. I don't think i can leave it as is and look for someone else, that's not really very fair. Or is it? How much harm would i be doing to her by taking that course of action. It's not as if i'll be breaking her heart or anything - even though she claims that she loves me, she does very little to show it.
Is it demanding of me to want some clue as to her liking/loving/wanting me other than the words she uses? Some small other sign that means the same thing? Is this a normally maddening "girly" trait expressing itself?
Ha! I felt guilty about not going to see her last night instead of hanging out with my friends and getting trashed. Stupid? Probably.
Does she care? Maybe, but she's not going to tell me is she?
Decided to come over for dinner tonight, which should be interesting as "the Vagueness" meets "the Darkness".
I am so seriously contemplating quitting this household that i am considering moving somewhere with Norton and bloody PlagueMidget... that'd be a fucking riot...
At least i've found some places to crash when i need to - thanks Silk!
He bowled quite well, and i think needs to have an aggressive captain to bowl with, one who sets him a good field.
Jinx started winding a few of us up yesterday, telling us that he was sleeping with one of the girls from the pub and all they do "is eat and root". My 'don't-want-to-talk-about-this' reaction was put down to jealousy by him, and while Paul & Silk had a better clue.
My current relationship doesn't seem to be much more complex than that, and the mere fact that i am spending so much time thinking about it, let alone the endless reams of paper, pixels and keystrokes devoted to it, means that there is a problem. Now she apologises that she will not be very sociable over the next six weeks while she concentrates on her uni work, and catching up with people.
...
So... i guess i have to figure out what i want to do. Do i want to knock this on the head and look elsewhere, or do i want to sit it out. I don't think i can leave it as is and look for someone else, that's not really very fair. Or is it? How much harm would i be doing to her by taking that course of action. It's not as if i'll be breaking her heart or anything - even though she claims that she loves me, she does very little to show it.
Is it demanding of me to want some clue as to her liking/loving/wanting me other than the words she uses? Some small other sign that means the same thing? Is this a normally maddening "girly" trait expressing itself?
Ha! I felt guilty about not going to see her last night instead of hanging out with my friends and getting trashed. Stupid? Probably.
Does she care? Maybe, but she's not going to tell me is she?
Decided to come over for dinner tonight, which should be interesting as "the Vagueness" meets "the Darkness".
I am so seriously contemplating quitting this household that i am considering moving somewhere with Norton and bloody PlagueMidget... that'd be a fucking riot...
At least i've found some places to crash when i need to - thanks Silk!