Fanmix: How I Feel [Smallville - Lana Lang - PG-13]
Fandom: Smallville
Title: How I Feel
Subject: Lana Lang
Disclaimer: Lana belongs to the people at Smallville and DC Comics. Songs belong to their respective artists. Covers were made by me.
Rating/Warnings: PG-13
Mixers Notes: For womenlovefest. I tried extra hard to focus on Lana as a person and not just her relationships. I hope I succeeded. (Also paid special attention to her necklace on the covers.)
Shadow - Ashlee Simpson
I was six years old
when my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
she was beautiful
she had everything and more
and my escape was hiding out
and running for the door
somebody listen please
it used to be so hard being me
living in the shadow
of someone else's dream
trying to find a hand to hold
but every touch felt cold to me
living in a nightmare
a never-ending sleep
but now that I am wide awake
my chains are finally free
don't feel sorry for me
Stand Still, Look Pretty - The Wreckers
sometimes I find myself shaking
in the middle of the night
and then it hits me and I can't
even believe this is my life
but people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
and I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths
I'm not strong enough to deal with it
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
you might think it's easy being me
you just stand still, look pretty
Overprotected - Britney Spears
say hello to the girl that I am
you're gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
and I don't wanna be so damn protected
there must be another way
cause I believe in taking chances
but who am I to say
what a girl is to do
God, I need some answers
what am I to do to win my life
(you will find it out don't worry)
how am I supposed to know what's right
(you just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
but my life has been so overprotected
I tell 'em what I like
what I want
and what I don't
but every time I do I stand corrected
things that I've been told
I can't believe what I hear about the world, I realize
I'm overprotected
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I don't need nobody tellin' me just what I wanna
what I, what, what I'm gonna
do about my destiny
I say no, no
no nobody tell me just what I wanna do, do
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be, be
someone else but me
How I Feel - Kelly Clarkson
looks like I made a mess again
heartbreak everywhere I step
this fire is getting hot again
but I touch the flame cause I'm a curious cat
creeping where I don't belong
finding out what I knew all along
crying all alone
and it's all my fault, all my fault
yeah, I did it again...again
oh, I'm getting tired of believing
even sicker of pretending
that it's not so bad, just wait it out
oh, I think you're feeding me lies again
the only good man left wasn't him
and that's how I feel right now so just let me be
Skin - Alexz Johnson
what you had didn't fit
among the pretty things
never fear, never fear
I now know where you've been
braids have been untied
ribbons fall away
leave the consequence
my tears you'll taste
falling apart and all that I question
is this a dream or is this my lesson
oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie
I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be okay
I don't believe how you've thrown me away
I do believe you didn't try
I do blame you for every lie
when I look in your eyes, I don't see mine
oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie
oh my permission to sin
you might have started my reckoning
I've got a reason now to bury him alive
another little white lie
Split Personality - Pink
I do not trust
so I cannot love
oh no no no
and I would not dare to open up
well my rent's past due and now my car won't start
I hate the bus
tell me what do they see when they look at me
do they see my many personalities
can you help me
does anybody hear me
can they even see me
this is my reality
Fallen - Sarah McLachlan
truth be told I've tried my best
but somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
and the cost was so much more than I could bear
though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
better I should know
so don't come round here
and tell me "I told you so..."
-------------
Heaven bent to take my hand
nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
to everyone I know
oh they turn their heads embarrassed
pretend that they don't see
but it's one missed step
you'll slip before you know it
and there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
My Skin - Natalie Merchant
I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
as if I'm becoming untouchable
I'm the slow dying flower
In the frost killing hour
sweet turning sour and untouchable
-------------
do you remember the way that you touched me before
all the trembling sweetness I loved and adored
your face-saving promises whispered like prayers
I don't need them
oh, I need the darkness
the sweetness
the sadness
the weakness
oh, I need this
I need a lullaby
a kiss good night
angel sweet love of my life
oh, I need this
well is it dark enough
can you see me
do you want me
can you reach me
oh, I'm leaving
you better shut your mouth
and hold your breath
and kiss me now
and catch your death
oh, I mean this
Gardenia - Mandy Moore
well I put so much thought in the getting ready
and now I know that was the best part
it's so easy to get caught up in what I'm regretting
forget what I got from a wounded heart
I'm the one who likes Gardenia
I'm the one who likes to make love on the floor
I don't wanna hang up the phone yet
it's been good getting to know me more
I've been seeing all my old friends in the city
and walking alone in Central Park
doing all the things that are neglected
I traded them all in to be in your arms
well, I hear my own voice sounds so silly
keep on telling my story all around
everything I lost seems so different
well, this is how everybody gets found
I'm the one who likes Gardenia
I'm the one who likes to make love on the floor
and I don't wanna hang up the phone yet
It's been good getting to know me more
Keeps Gettin' Better - Christina Aguilera
in the blink of an eye
in the speed of the light
I'll hold the universe up
and make your planets collide
when I strap on my boots
and I slip on my suit
you see the vixen in me
becomes an angel for you
some days I'm a super bitch
up to my old tricks
but it won't last forever
next day I'm your supergirl
out to save the world
and it keeps getting better
Zip here!
Let me know if any links are wrong/broken and I'll fix it ASAP.
Title: How I Feel
Subject: Lana Lang
Disclaimer: Lana belongs to the people at Smallville and DC Comics. Songs belong to their respective artists. Covers were made by me.
Rating/Warnings: PG-13
Mixers Notes: For womenlovefest. I tried extra hard to focus on Lana as a person and not just her relationships. I hope I succeeded. (Also paid special attention to her necklace on the covers.)
Shadow - Ashlee Simpson
I was six years old
when my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
she was beautiful
she had everything and more
and my escape was hiding out
and running for the door
somebody listen please
it used to be so hard being me
living in the shadow
of someone else's dream
trying to find a hand to hold
but every touch felt cold to me
living in a nightmare
a never-ending sleep
but now that I am wide awake
my chains are finally free
don't feel sorry for me
Stand Still, Look Pretty - The Wreckers
sometimes I find myself shaking
in the middle of the night
and then it hits me and I can't
even believe this is my life
but people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
and I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths
I'm not strong enough to deal with it
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
you might think it's easy being me
you just stand still, look pretty
Overprotected - Britney Spears
say hello to the girl that I am
you're gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
and I don't wanna be so damn protected
there must be another way
cause I believe in taking chances
but who am I to say
what a girl is to do
God, I need some answers
what am I to do to win my life
(you will find it out don't worry)
how am I supposed to know what's right
(you just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
but my life has been so overprotected
I tell 'em what I like
what I want
and what I don't
but every time I do I stand corrected
things that I've been told
I can't believe what I hear about the world, I realize
I'm overprotected
-------------
I don't need nobody tellin' me just what I wanna
what I, what, what I'm gonna
do about my destiny
I say no, no
no nobody tell me just what I wanna do, do
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be, be
someone else but me
How I Feel - Kelly Clarkson
looks like I made a mess again
heartbreak everywhere I step
this fire is getting hot again
but I touch the flame cause I'm a curious cat
creeping where I don't belong
finding out what I knew all along
crying all alone
and it's all my fault, all my fault
yeah, I did it again...again
oh, I'm getting tired of believing
even sicker of pretending
that it's not so bad, just wait it out
oh, I think you're feeding me lies again
the only good man left wasn't him
and that's how I feel right now so just let me be
Skin - Alexz Johnson
what you had didn't fit
among the pretty things
never fear, never fear
I now know where you've been
braids have been untied
ribbons fall away
leave the consequence
my tears you'll taste
falling apart and all that I question
is this a dream or is this my lesson
oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie
I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be okay
I don't believe how you've thrown me away
I do believe you didn't try
I do blame you for every lie
when I look in your eyes, I don't see mine
oh, he's under my skin
just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
another little white lie
oh my permission to sin
you might have started my reckoning
I've got a reason now to bury him alive
another little white lie
Split Personality - Pink
I do not trust
so I cannot love
oh no no no
and I would not dare to open up
well my rent's past due and now my car won't start
I hate the bus
tell me what do they see when they look at me
do they see my many personalities
can you help me
does anybody hear me
can they even see me
this is my reality
Fallen - Sarah McLachlan
truth be told I've tried my best
but somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
and the cost was so much more than I could bear
though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
better I should know
so don't come round here
and tell me "I told you so..."
-------------
Heaven bent to take my hand
nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
to everyone I know
oh they turn their heads embarrassed
pretend that they don't see
but it's one missed step
you'll slip before you know it
and there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed
My Skin - Natalie Merchant
I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
as if I'm becoming untouchable
I'm the slow dying flower
In the frost killing hour
sweet turning sour and untouchable
-------------
do you remember the way that you touched me before
all the trembling sweetness I loved and adored
your face-saving promises whispered like prayers
I don't need them
oh, I need the darkness
the sweetness
the sadness
the weakness
oh, I need this
I need a lullaby
a kiss good night
angel sweet love of my life
oh, I need this
well is it dark enough
can you see me
do you want me
can you reach me
oh, I'm leaving
you better shut your mouth
and hold your breath
and kiss me now
and catch your death
oh, I mean this
Gardenia - Mandy Moore
well I put so much thought in the getting ready
and now I know that was the best part
it's so easy to get caught up in what I'm regretting
forget what I got from a wounded heart
I'm the one who likes Gardenia
I'm the one who likes to make love on the floor
I don't wanna hang up the phone yet
it's been good getting to know me more
I've been seeing all my old friends in the city
and walking alone in Central Park
doing all the things that are neglected
I traded them all in to be in your arms
well, I hear my own voice sounds so silly
keep on telling my story all around
everything I lost seems so different
well, this is how everybody gets found
I'm the one who likes Gardenia
I'm the one who likes to make love on the floor
and I don't wanna hang up the phone yet
It's been good getting to know me more
Keeps Gettin' Better - Christina Aguilera
in the blink of an eye
in the speed of the light
I'll hold the universe up
and make your planets collide
when I strap on my boots
and I slip on my suit
you see the vixen in me
becomes an angel for you
some days I'm a super bitch
up to my old tricks
but it won't last forever
next day I'm your supergirl
out to save the world
and it keeps getting better
Zip here!
Let me know if any links are wrong/broken and I'll fix it ASAP.