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I feel like I've been pushing away my friends this week. I don't reutrn people's calls, I don't respond to comments or IMs, I tell them I can't hang out (well, today I really was sick) because I'm cleaning ( I really was, but that's a lame excuse). Two people who were concerned about me wrote me notes, and I haven't written them back. It just feels like.. I can't get into the mood to talk about things. Today Mike called me and upon recognizing his ringtone I screamed, "Leave me alone!!!" before I picked up the phone and sweetly answered, "Hello?" I don't even know why I did that. I don't even know why I'm doing any of this. I'm so impatient and lazy... I had to push myself to write this. I haven't written anythign here in ages, and believe me, I have a lot to say about various things. I do love my friends, but why am I not putting forth more effort to talk to them or hang out with them? Do I just need some alone time or something? What's wrong with me?