Problem... solved?
*edited conversation with Jackie*
I have everything figured out.. I think?
Me: i'm feeling rather emo tonight
Me: well, i was thinking about how he is going to be in our prom group...
Me: and don't get me wrong; i'm glad he is going to be, but...
Me: i know that i think he’d be an awesome date, BUT I didn't and couldn't ask him because we haven't talked this year... know what i mean?
jax: yeah
Me: but somehow, i know that i'd still want to
Me: so anyway, i'm so afraid that @ prom, i'm going to feel that... longing.. .and wishing...
Me: and that's terrible. not fair to his date… or mine.
Me: i wish i could take my feelings for him and put them towards mike…
Me: i mena, i know that @ prom i'm not going to like, act upon anything...
Me: but i know how i am, and i know that seeing arty will make me want to be w/ him.. bring back memories, ya know?
Me: especially if they play certain songs.. and knowing McAuey, they will
Me: i know we're all in the limo 2gether, but i kinda hope that i don't end up at his table
jax: aha
Me: just because i need to give my full attention to mike
Me: well, and your girls
Me: but.. you know what i mean
Me: so i dunno what to do....
Me: lol
jax: but he's not goin
Me: what do i do?
Me: cold shower?
Me: lol
Me: j/k
jax: haha
jax: that what i need!
jax: lol
Me: lol
Me: what do i do tho?
jax: i dunno
Me: gah but yeah, i'm so stuck
jax: i dunno
jax: try to only look at him as a friend
Me: hmm
Me: so like... mental stuff.
Me: keep telling myself that he's a friend only so that i'll start to beleive it
Me: which is what i need to do anyways
Me: i need to get the idea that he and i might possibly get back together.. totally out of my mind.
Me: because he can only be a friend
I have everything figured out.. I think?
Me: i'm feeling rather emo tonight
Me: well, i was thinking about how he is going to be in our prom group...
Me: and don't get me wrong; i'm glad he is going to be, but...
Me: i know that i think he’d be an awesome date, BUT I didn't and couldn't ask him because we haven't talked this year... know what i mean?
jax: yeah
Me: but somehow, i know that i'd still want to
Me: so anyway, i'm so afraid that @ prom, i'm going to feel that... longing.. .and wishing...
Me: and that's terrible. not fair to his date… or mine.
Me: i wish i could take my feelings for him and put them towards mike…
Me: i mena, i know that @ prom i'm not going to like, act upon anything...
Me: but i know how i am, and i know that seeing arty will make me want to be w/ him.. bring back memories, ya know?
Me: especially if they play certain songs.. and knowing McAuey, they will
Me: i know we're all in the limo 2gether, but i kinda hope that i don't end up at his table
jax: aha
Me: just because i need to give my full attention to mike
Me: well, and your girls
Me: but.. you know what i mean
Me: so i dunno what to do....
Me: lol
jax: but he's not goin
Me: what do i do?
Me: cold shower?
Me: lol
Me: j/k
jax: haha
jax: that what i need!
jax: lol
Me: lol
Me: what do i do tho?
jax: i dunno
Me: gah but yeah, i'm so stuck
jax: i dunno
jax: try to only look at him as a friend
Me: hmm
Me: so like... mental stuff.
Me: keep telling myself that he's a friend only so that i'll start to beleive it
Me: which is what i need to do anyways
Me: i need to get the idea that he and i might possibly get back together.. totally out of my mind.
Me: because he can only be a friend