I don't know what I'm doing...
There it is believe it or not, I admit it. I don't know why I think the way I do or why I'm so stubborn. This is gonna be short and sweet. Someone said soemthing to me. Making me realize that for some reason probably as a result of my stubborn independance I have never really had anyone consistant in my life that I can depend on. When it's not right I walk away. I don't waste my time on meaningless relationships. Maybe this prohibits me from realizing soem good that may come from another person. When you have someone good in your life you shouldn't let them go or just blow it off, no matter how painful it is to make things work in some way. I shouldn't let the first person to ever really get me, walk away because I'm too scared to realize that I may need that in a friend too. I could use a real best friend. I have one best friend and he'll always be there for me and vice versa but this is different. And I'm not saying it's gonna be easy but I would like for you to be my best friend. And I want to be that for you too. I'm sorry for being an idiot but I just didn't want to make things more difficult for anyone.