Recap on 2009
It's been a busy year and I haven't had time to write much here. So I am sure there is so much I won't be able to remember to write which makes me sad. But I'll do my very bestest!
Work has consumed most of my time, which isn't necessarily a bad thing when you generally love what you do. Besides the fact that it is extremely energy consuming and a lot more work than I ever thought I was capable of its been good. Mainly because it's not school. I can do so much more when motivated by a paycheck. It also feels so good to know that I am gaining so much valuable experience in so many aspects. It feels good to work hard. Especially right now in my life. I want to work hard now while I am young. It just feels right.
Work got way more stressful with two new things. 1st I was promoted in December. That was a very positive stress in my life. March 2009 I opened my new classroom with 3 children. We stayed within ratio all the way through July. Which meant that I was by myself that whole time. Yes, you'd think having 3-4 children is much more manageable than 8. However having 4 by yourself is more of a challenge than having 8 with a co-teacher. Especially because I would never get prep time and cannot do any work without a co-teacher in the room. However, it was a good learning experience.
The other stress at work involves our accreditation. The center is in the process of becoming accredited by NAYCE. Which on the teachers end means that we have to complete a very large portfolio with zero prep time and we cannot work on it at home. Which basically means come in early, work through your lunch, stay late. This has also been a good learning experience. I completed the entire book by myself.
Finally, what I took away from working at CCLC Cisco is that the "game" is a lot more complicated than I would have ever imagined. Two of our head teachers were fired and it wasn't done pretty. It put a lot of things into perspective and has taught me a lot about admin that I really never expected. I kept trying to play the game and I myself was hurt in the process only a little. However, it's still disappointing mainly to find out that favoritism is a lot more complicated than I ever would have imagined. Thinking outside of the box has always served me well and I have another interesting year ahead of me that I think if I keep on putting God first will serve me well.
On the fun side of it I had my first baby turn 1 year old and he transitioned next door. He is my baby and always will be. He stole a piece of my heart away in an unexpected way. My next two baby's will be turning 1 in January. They are my special special baby's and always will be. One of them came to me at 6 weeks old. So you can imagine the type of bonding that went on despite the fact that I am a professional at knowing how to get close without getting too close to children because there has to be a healthy line there. They are not my children and at any time I may never see them again. But my first three are very very special to me. I've learned so much about infants, which was one of my goals as I have experience from age 1-18. However, I had very little experience with children who are under 1 years old. Getting to be around so many baby's has taught me so much and I feel as though I still have LOT to learn. Sarah and Karen plus 8. It's been a wild ride.
Over the year I also decided to pursue figuring out what the eff is up with my back. I saw a back and spine specialist. Same old story. Nothing wrong with you... blah blah blah. You have invisible pain. However, we did a lot of different tests. Started some medication and an MRI was ordered.
I'm so use to always hearing nothing wrong with you. So when the doctor told me they found something in my MRI you'd think I would have been utterly terrified. However, I am not exactly thrilled with my back doctor. We aren't a good match and to be honest with you I don't think my problems are exactly his specialty. Basically he told me not to worry. There's nothing wrong with me. The thing they found is unrelated to my pain. Is most likely nothing and oh yeah, he couldn't explain what it was at all. All he could say is that I would have to talk to the neurosurgeon and not to worry..... it was a stressful time. However, most of it was internalized. And besides all that I had to wait.
In summer we had to put my wonderful kitty to sleep. That was really hard on our family especially my mom. We are still sad. But doing better. The hard thing is deciding on if we should get another animal. I think it would help my mom a lot. But it’s so nice not having to take care of an animal. It’s nice to be able to go on vacation and not have to figure out what we are going to do with the cat. But she was a special kitty and we really miss her. My brother found her when she was just a kitty and hid her in his closet for a few days before my mom found her. She was so cute. But she was in a lot of pain her last few years. She was having trouble breathing when my mom brought her to the vet. They said she had congestive heart failure and that it was so hard for her to breathe. It was a really hard decision for my mom to make. But I think it was the best.
I went to Disneyland on my birthday. That was fun. It was my first trip with the boy. He brought his friend and I brought mine. Kenny and my mom drove with us all the way to Disneyland. I say all the way because we took highway 1. It was something I always wanted to do and will probably be something everyone will always hold against me for doing. It was beautiful! But it was freaking long. It was neat to get into Disneyland for FREE. They give you a button and wish you happy birthday every time they see your button.
On October 11th Johnny and I went to spend the day in San Francisco. I had a little inkling at the beginning that he might be up to something. However throughout the day I was trying to figure out where he would have kept the ring. There was no indication that it was in his pockets. I thought that perhaps it was in his coat pocket. However, early in the day he had his coat in the back seat on my side and he asked me to grab it for him. I figured if he had hidden it in his coat he probably wouldn’t let me go near it. As the day went on my suspicion lessened quite a bit. By the end of the day I was certain that it wasn’t going to happen. At the very end of the day we rushed the golden gate park. We had never been there before and we were driving around. We finally got out of the car near the waterfall. I didn’t even know there was a waterfall. We stood in front of it. Me completely clueless. He acting strange. I wanted to look at him and he was acting awkward trying to get my to turn around to look at the waterfall. He was behind me and I couldn’t understand why we were just standing there like we were staring at the waterfall. Finally I thought, “Oh, I guess we are just having a moment…..?” when all of the sudden he swirled me around facing him. As he turned me around he was down on one knee! He had hidden the ring in his phone pouch. So the whole awkward moment was him trying to get the ring out without me noticing. I honestly don’t remember what he said. I was so excited. All I do remember is he finally said, “Will you please marry me?” I thought it was cute that he said “please.” I of course said yes!!! We were both so excited. He said he was nervous all day. I didn’t even notice. He seemed so chill I thought for sure nothing was going to happen. After that it was dark and we excitedly drove home but thought we needed to celebrate! So he took me to Il Fornaio. I love that place and we had yummy dessert!
We didn’t set a date yet. He is looking for a job here. So we decided to wait until he gets more settled before we make any plans. Which is nice. I’ve just been enjoying being engaged rather than stressing over wedding plans ASAP! Although, we are both starting to get a little antsy. We are both ready to get hitched. When we do actually start making plans I’m hoping that things won’t be too stressful. I feel pretty secure knowing that my mom planned my brothers wedding. She did the whole thing on a budget no less and it was flawless. I don’t want a big wedding. So hopefully the wedding will be like me. Simple but special! For now I’ve just been working on engagement photos. After looking online at a LOT of REALLY expensive photographers I decided to put an ad out on craigslist and got a lot of responses. Now I’m just looking at their sites and writing to them telling them our awkward situation of-“he lives in Rocklin, I live in San Jose, and we want the photos to be taken in San Francisco. Oh and we rarely have the same days off. So do you want to do the job for really cheap??”
November we went to Hawaii. Just to Oahu. We hadn't been in like 6 years so it was way overdue. My parents went a week ahead of me. Which made them miss my neurosurgeon appointment. We had planned the trip way in advance to get the great plan ticket prices. So we had no clue at this time that it was going to be then. So my now fiancé came with me to my appointment. The appointment was pretty frustrating. The neurosurgeon was really nice. She spent a lot of time with us. We asked a lot of questions because it is really really confusing. Basically I have a deformation in my back that either I had from birth or occurred from some sort of injury like the car accident on in gymnastics. If I tried to explain more I think I will just make it sound more confusing than it is. So I’ll stop there. We talked about the pain a little bit and she talked about some ideas of what I can do. She said there’s a small chance that there is a tumor. However, she wouldn’t be able to tell unless I get an MRI with contrast. She said I shouldn’t worry about it for now. But if I ever get an MRI again to make sure to do the contrast. Basically I walked out with a neck brace and a pat on the back. She told me that I have a very delicate frame and basically can’t handle any stress whatsoever. I will never be able to do any manual labor and shouldn’t really be doing what I am doing, let alone working at all. She literally said that by looking at my MRI she can see that I shouldn’t be working and should just sit at home resting for the rest of my life. Because I am not doing that, I have problems.
It’s hard because I think I’ve had this myofascial pain since I was 8 and I’ve learned to just deal with it. Any time I’ve ever talked about it too much it just makes me even more aware of how absolutely awful it is. Therefore, I’ve learned to just put on a smile and pretend it doesn’t exist. Because I do this I don’t think the doctors realize I feel like I can go on like this much longer. I put on a good act. However, in reality my internal thoughts are much different. I’m not at all suicidal. However, I do have many moments where I feel like I want to end all this. I am depressed about it. But I cope a lot because it’s the only thing I can do. The medicine I was taking didn’t help the situation. It made me really really grumpy, irritable, agitated, and just not myself. No matter what I did I felt the little grey cloud above my head. Even in Hawaii. Don’t get me wrong. It was a great much needed trip.
I flew by myself for the first time in my life. Which was exciting. Well getting there was more than exciting. They changed my flight time and I was rushing and late! The shuttle made some calls and tried his best to get me there on time. However, on the way we saw what appeared to be a suicide attempt or a terrorist act. A car was driving 80+ mph strategically hitting 8 cars on purpose before he flipped over and eventually his car caught on fire. But I got there, and got on the plane in the nick of time. Hawaii was fantastic. I think everyone needs to go to Hawaii ever few years at least. It was crazy talking to my fiancé in the middle of November at night sitting on the porch in shorts and a tank top perfectly comfortable. While he was hiding in his bed under his covers saying he’s freezing cold. The weather was good for me. Winter time is usually really hard for me. But this gave me a little bit of an extension to my summer. We didn’t do anything. We’ve been to Oahu several times already. So we’ve already done all the tours and snorkeling etc. I just wanted to rest, chill, shop, and go to the beach every day and that’s exactly what we did. It was so nice. However, towards the end of our trip my parents went to North Shore and I decided to stay back in Wikiki to relax. While at NS my dad went in the water and got knocked over by a wave. He hurt his arm really bad. We eventually went to urgent care to find out he broke his arm….. at least it was at the end of our trip. But poor daddy.
For Thanksgiving we weren’t going to do much because my daddy usually is the chef. But with a broken arm we decided to keep it low-key. So I went to Johnny’s for Thanksgiving. That was nice. Not shortly after I finally found a new car! I had been looking for one for quite some time. However, there weren’t many big deals despite what you would think with the recession and all. My poor little red ’99 Kia that I bought back in 2000 was well over its time to go. The final straw was when my car overheated…..again…. on the way to work. By the time I pulled in to the parking lot it was steaming so much that even though we park in the back; parents noticed and told the lady at the front desk. She in turn sent out an e-mail to the entire staff saying that a parents saw a car that is smoking and is very concerned. I also had many of my friends coming into my room telling me my car was on fire…… I was so embarrassed and that motivated me to finally look. I really wanted a Honda. However, there wasn’t anything I liked within my price range. I finally decided to go with what I knew--the Kia. I found a 2008 SILVER Kia that looked brand new with only 10,000 miles. I was able to pay for the car myself with cash. It felt really good because I worked hard for the car and I totally love it. It’s a huge huge upgrade from what I had. No AC for almost 4 years now. The heater was going out. The locks were screwy. The CD player was funky. It was leaky. As in, when it rained water would drip on me… it was freaking 10 years old.. I took really good care of it and fixed it up a lot. But its old and is going to have a lot of times where it is going to break down and I just wasn’t in a place to be on the side of the road at night broken down. However, my brother was in great need of a car and I decided to give it to him. It’s nice to keep the car in the family. I kind of want to know how she finally goes. And it’s nice to know it’ll get more use out of it. Since I put so much into it i.e. brand new tires and can serve of some use for a while longer its good that someone is able to use her. It’s my first car and it’s always so hard to say goodbye. But new Kia is definitely a good replacement. It even has a thing I can hook my ipod up to :-D
Thank the good LORD for PTO. Cisco has its shutdown and my work finally decided to participate in this. So we got 11 glorious days off 7 of which are paid! This was much needed after a long year. I finally decided that the medicine was no beno. I gave it a shot but enough was enough. At my follow up appointment I told him that it was good but that it made me too agitated. So he switched me onto a different medication and told me that it may take up to a year before I notice it helping… but so far its definitely better as far as not feeling so angry. I feel more like myself. I feel like I can see a lot clearer. It’s not 100% great. But at least I’m not getting in as many confrontations. While going Christmas shopping I got in a nice little confrontation with the parking attendant. But now I am more relaxed. Christmas was nice. Johnny was able to spend Christmas Eve with our family. We had dinner at our house. My brother, sister-in-law and niece came too. Then we went to my Aunts house. We use to go to her house every year. But after my Uncle passed away we stopped. We hadn’t got together in such a long time. But it was really fun to get together again. Christmas day was mellow too. Just opened presents with the family and relaxed.
Here we are. New Year’s Eve. I’m not sure what 2010 holds for me. There’s a lot of possibilities. Married life, hopefully getting some help with my back. I think New York will wait til 2011. This year I want to vacay at home. I need to work on reducing stress. I have to take some classes for work. I was kind of stressing about it. I already am maxed out to capacity and don’t want to take on more. However, I figured it will be exciting to see how I handle school while working full time. Depending on how it goes it’ll kind of give me an idea of if I should work while going to grad school or if I need to save up and only work part time. I really want to go to grad school. I felt ready this year. But I also know I don’t need to add anything to my plate. Plus I just bought a car. So I’ll need to save a little bit even if I’m working full time. Oh and did I mention we are getting twins? Yes, Karen and I are having twins at the end of January lol. I totally jinxed myself too. We have two spaces opening up and I jokingly said to Karen, “Maybe we’ll get twins!” And then admin e-mailed a month later…. It’ll be good experience!
Until next year!
Work has consumed most of my time, which isn't necessarily a bad thing when you generally love what you do. Besides the fact that it is extremely energy consuming and a lot more work than I ever thought I was capable of its been good. Mainly because it's not school. I can do so much more when motivated by a paycheck. It also feels so good to know that I am gaining so much valuable experience in so many aspects. It feels good to work hard. Especially right now in my life. I want to work hard now while I am young. It just feels right.
Work got way more stressful with two new things. 1st I was promoted in December. That was a very positive stress in my life. March 2009 I opened my new classroom with 3 children. We stayed within ratio all the way through July. Which meant that I was by myself that whole time. Yes, you'd think having 3-4 children is much more manageable than 8. However having 4 by yourself is more of a challenge than having 8 with a co-teacher. Especially because I would never get prep time and cannot do any work without a co-teacher in the room. However, it was a good learning experience.
The other stress at work involves our accreditation. The center is in the process of becoming accredited by NAYCE. Which on the teachers end means that we have to complete a very large portfolio with zero prep time and we cannot work on it at home. Which basically means come in early, work through your lunch, stay late. This has also been a good learning experience. I completed the entire book by myself.
Finally, what I took away from working at CCLC Cisco is that the "game" is a lot more complicated than I would have ever imagined. Two of our head teachers were fired and it wasn't done pretty. It put a lot of things into perspective and has taught me a lot about admin that I really never expected. I kept trying to play the game and I myself was hurt in the process only a little. However, it's still disappointing mainly to find out that favoritism is a lot more complicated than I ever would have imagined. Thinking outside of the box has always served me well and I have another interesting year ahead of me that I think if I keep on putting God first will serve me well.
On the fun side of it I had my first baby turn 1 year old and he transitioned next door. He is my baby and always will be. He stole a piece of my heart away in an unexpected way. My next two baby's will be turning 1 in January. They are my special special baby's and always will be. One of them came to me at 6 weeks old. So you can imagine the type of bonding that went on despite the fact that I am a professional at knowing how to get close without getting too close to children because there has to be a healthy line there. They are not my children and at any time I may never see them again. But my first three are very very special to me. I've learned so much about infants, which was one of my goals as I have experience from age 1-18. However, I had very little experience with children who are under 1 years old. Getting to be around so many baby's has taught me so much and I feel as though I still have LOT to learn. Sarah and Karen plus 8. It's been a wild ride.
Over the year I also decided to pursue figuring out what the eff is up with my back. I saw a back and spine specialist. Same old story. Nothing wrong with you... blah blah blah. You have invisible pain. However, we did a lot of different tests. Started some medication and an MRI was ordered.
I'm so use to always hearing nothing wrong with you. So when the doctor told me they found something in my MRI you'd think I would have been utterly terrified. However, I am not exactly thrilled with my back doctor. We aren't a good match and to be honest with you I don't think my problems are exactly his specialty. Basically he told me not to worry. There's nothing wrong with me. The thing they found is unrelated to my pain. Is most likely nothing and oh yeah, he couldn't explain what it was at all. All he could say is that I would have to talk to the neurosurgeon and not to worry..... it was a stressful time. However, most of it was internalized. And besides all that I had to wait.
In summer we had to put my wonderful kitty to sleep. That was really hard on our family especially my mom. We are still sad. But doing better. The hard thing is deciding on if we should get another animal. I think it would help my mom a lot. But it’s so nice not having to take care of an animal. It’s nice to be able to go on vacation and not have to figure out what we are going to do with the cat. But she was a special kitty and we really miss her. My brother found her when she was just a kitty and hid her in his closet for a few days before my mom found her. She was so cute. But she was in a lot of pain her last few years. She was having trouble breathing when my mom brought her to the vet. They said she had congestive heart failure and that it was so hard for her to breathe. It was a really hard decision for my mom to make. But I think it was the best.
I went to Disneyland on my birthday. That was fun. It was my first trip with the boy. He brought his friend and I brought mine. Kenny and my mom drove with us all the way to Disneyland. I say all the way because we took highway 1. It was something I always wanted to do and will probably be something everyone will always hold against me for doing. It was beautiful! But it was freaking long. It was neat to get into Disneyland for FREE. They give you a button and wish you happy birthday every time they see your button.
On October 11th Johnny and I went to spend the day in San Francisco. I had a little inkling at the beginning that he might be up to something. However throughout the day I was trying to figure out where he would have kept the ring. There was no indication that it was in his pockets. I thought that perhaps it was in his coat pocket. However, early in the day he had his coat in the back seat on my side and he asked me to grab it for him. I figured if he had hidden it in his coat he probably wouldn’t let me go near it. As the day went on my suspicion lessened quite a bit. By the end of the day I was certain that it wasn’t going to happen. At the very end of the day we rushed the golden gate park. We had never been there before and we were driving around. We finally got out of the car near the waterfall. I didn’t even know there was a waterfall. We stood in front of it. Me completely clueless. He acting strange. I wanted to look at him and he was acting awkward trying to get my to turn around to look at the waterfall. He was behind me and I couldn’t understand why we were just standing there like we were staring at the waterfall. Finally I thought, “Oh, I guess we are just having a moment…..?” when all of the sudden he swirled me around facing him. As he turned me around he was down on one knee! He had hidden the ring in his phone pouch. So the whole awkward moment was him trying to get the ring out without me noticing. I honestly don’t remember what he said. I was so excited. All I do remember is he finally said, “Will you please marry me?” I thought it was cute that he said “please.” I of course said yes!!! We were both so excited. He said he was nervous all day. I didn’t even notice. He seemed so chill I thought for sure nothing was going to happen. After that it was dark and we excitedly drove home but thought we needed to celebrate! So he took me to Il Fornaio. I love that place and we had yummy dessert!
We didn’t set a date yet. He is looking for a job here. So we decided to wait until he gets more settled before we make any plans. Which is nice. I’ve just been enjoying being engaged rather than stressing over wedding plans ASAP! Although, we are both starting to get a little antsy. We are both ready to get hitched. When we do actually start making plans I’m hoping that things won’t be too stressful. I feel pretty secure knowing that my mom planned my brothers wedding. She did the whole thing on a budget no less and it was flawless. I don’t want a big wedding. So hopefully the wedding will be like me. Simple but special! For now I’ve just been working on engagement photos. After looking online at a LOT of REALLY expensive photographers I decided to put an ad out on craigslist and got a lot of responses. Now I’m just looking at their sites and writing to them telling them our awkward situation of-“he lives in Rocklin, I live in San Jose, and we want the photos to be taken in San Francisco. Oh and we rarely have the same days off. So do you want to do the job for really cheap??”
November we went to Hawaii. Just to Oahu. We hadn't been in like 6 years so it was way overdue. My parents went a week ahead of me. Which made them miss my neurosurgeon appointment. We had planned the trip way in advance to get the great plan ticket prices. So we had no clue at this time that it was going to be then. So my now fiancé came with me to my appointment. The appointment was pretty frustrating. The neurosurgeon was really nice. She spent a lot of time with us. We asked a lot of questions because it is really really confusing. Basically I have a deformation in my back that either I had from birth or occurred from some sort of injury like the car accident on in gymnastics. If I tried to explain more I think I will just make it sound more confusing than it is. So I’ll stop there. We talked about the pain a little bit and she talked about some ideas of what I can do. She said there’s a small chance that there is a tumor. However, she wouldn’t be able to tell unless I get an MRI with contrast. She said I shouldn’t worry about it for now. But if I ever get an MRI again to make sure to do the contrast. Basically I walked out with a neck brace and a pat on the back. She told me that I have a very delicate frame and basically can’t handle any stress whatsoever. I will never be able to do any manual labor and shouldn’t really be doing what I am doing, let alone working at all. She literally said that by looking at my MRI she can see that I shouldn’t be working and should just sit at home resting for the rest of my life. Because I am not doing that, I have problems.
It’s hard because I think I’ve had this myofascial pain since I was 8 and I’ve learned to just deal with it. Any time I’ve ever talked about it too much it just makes me even more aware of how absolutely awful it is. Therefore, I’ve learned to just put on a smile and pretend it doesn’t exist. Because I do this I don’t think the doctors realize I feel like I can go on like this much longer. I put on a good act. However, in reality my internal thoughts are much different. I’m not at all suicidal. However, I do have many moments where I feel like I want to end all this. I am depressed about it. But I cope a lot because it’s the only thing I can do. The medicine I was taking didn’t help the situation. It made me really really grumpy, irritable, agitated, and just not myself. No matter what I did I felt the little grey cloud above my head. Even in Hawaii. Don’t get me wrong. It was a great much needed trip.
I flew by myself for the first time in my life. Which was exciting. Well getting there was more than exciting. They changed my flight time and I was rushing and late! The shuttle made some calls and tried his best to get me there on time. However, on the way we saw what appeared to be a suicide attempt or a terrorist act. A car was driving 80+ mph strategically hitting 8 cars on purpose before he flipped over and eventually his car caught on fire. But I got there, and got on the plane in the nick of time. Hawaii was fantastic. I think everyone needs to go to Hawaii ever few years at least. It was crazy talking to my fiancé in the middle of November at night sitting on the porch in shorts and a tank top perfectly comfortable. While he was hiding in his bed under his covers saying he’s freezing cold. The weather was good for me. Winter time is usually really hard for me. But this gave me a little bit of an extension to my summer. We didn’t do anything. We’ve been to Oahu several times already. So we’ve already done all the tours and snorkeling etc. I just wanted to rest, chill, shop, and go to the beach every day and that’s exactly what we did. It was so nice. However, towards the end of our trip my parents went to North Shore and I decided to stay back in Wikiki to relax. While at NS my dad went in the water and got knocked over by a wave. He hurt his arm really bad. We eventually went to urgent care to find out he broke his arm….. at least it was at the end of our trip. But poor daddy.
For Thanksgiving we weren’t going to do much because my daddy usually is the chef. But with a broken arm we decided to keep it low-key. So I went to Johnny’s for Thanksgiving. That was nice. Not shortly after I finally found a new car! I had been looking for one for quite some time. However, there weren’t many big deals despite what you would think with the recession and all. My poor little red ’99 Kia that I bought back in 2000 was well over its time to go. The final straw was when my car overheated…..again…. on the way to work. By the time I pulled in to the parking lot it was steaming so much that even though we park in the back; parents noticed and told the lady at the front desk. She in turn sent out an e-mail to the entire staff saying that a parents saw a car that is smoking and is very concerned. I also had many of my friends coming into my room telling me my car was on fire…… I was so embarrassed and that motivated me to finally look. I really wanted a Honda. However, there wasn’t anything I liked within my price range. I finally decided to go with what I knew--the Kia. I found a 2008 SILVER Kia that looked brand new with only 10,000 miles. I was able to pay for the car myself with cash. It felt really good because I worked hard for the car and I totally love it. It’s a huge huge upgrade from what I had. No AC for almost 4 years now. The heater was going out. The locks were screwy. The CD player was funky. It was leaky. As in, when it rained water would drip on me… it was freaking 10 years old.. I took really good care of it and fixed it up a lot. But its old and is going to have a lot of times where it is going to break down and I just wasn’t in a place to be on the side of the road at night broken down. However, my brother was in great need of a car and I decided to give it to him. It’s nice to keep the car in the family. I kind of want to know how she finally goes. And it’s nice to know it’ll get more use out of it. Since I put so much into it i.e. brand new tires and can serve of some use for a while longer its good that someone is able to use her. It’s my first car and it’s always so hard to say goodbye. But new Kia is definitely a good replacement. It even has a thing I can hook my ipod up to :-D
Thank the good LORD for PTO. Cisco has its shutdown and my work finally decided to participate in this. So we got 11 glorious days off 7 of which are paid! This was much needed after a long year. I finally decided that the medicine was no beno. I gave it a shot but enough was enough. At my follow up appointment I told him that it was good but that it made me too agitated. So he switched me onto a different medication and told me that it may take up to a year before I notice it helping… but so far its definitely better as far as not feeling so angry. I feel more like myself. I feel like I can see a lot clearer. It’s not 100% great. But at least I’m not getting in as many confrontations. While going Christmas shopping I got in a nice little confrontation with the parking attendant. But now I am more relaxed. Christmas was nice. Johnny was able to spend Christmas Eve with our family. We had dinner at our house. My brother, sister-in-law and niece came too. Then we went to my Aunts house. We use to go to her house every year. But after my Uncle passed away we stopped. We hadn’t got together in such a long time. But it was really fun to get together again. Christmas day was mellow too. Just opened presents with the family and relaxed.
Here we are. New Year’s Eve. I’m not sure what 2010 holds for me. There’s a lot of possibilities. Married life, hopefully getting some help with my back. I think New York will wait til 2011. This year I want to vacay at home. I need to work on reducing stress. I have to take some classes for work. I was kind of stressing about it. I already am maxed out to capacity and don’t want to take on more. However, I figured it will be exciting to see how I handle school while working full time. Depending on how it goes it’ll kind of give me an idea of if I should work while going to grad school or if I need to save up and only work part time. I really want to go to grad school. I felt ready this year. But I also know I don’t need to add anything to my plate. Plus I just bought a car. So I’ll need to save a little bit even if I’m working full time. Oh and did I mention we are getting twins? Yes, Karen and I are having twins at the end of January lol. I totally jinxed myself too. We have two spaces opening up and I jokingly said to Karen, “Maybe we’ll get twins!” And then admin e-mailed a month later…. It’ll be good experience!
Until next year!