Oct 21, 2008 20:57
Hi, my name is Sarah, and i am pissed off.
Since when did it become a requirement to have a boyfriend in order to hang out with your friends? But because i am single does not mean that I should be excluded from events.
First of all, it's not like i wake up every morning and say "hmm, i think today i'm going to NOT get a boyfriend." This isn't my choice! I don't have a little controller to take care of different aspects of my life; Do you want a boyfriend today? "click" Do you want to be single this week? "click, click"
The day i actually decide that i'd rather be single and lonely, surrounded by all my happy "couple'd" friends, that's the day when i will be okay with you excluding me from your little parties because i'm a "me" instead of an "us."
Second, did it ever occur to anyone that maybe they're the ones with the warped view of life? Maybe, it's NOT normal to date someone for two years of high school, and then plan to attend college at the same place so you never have to be apart until the day you're married. Maybe I'M the one who deserves to be awarded for not falling for the first asshole i meet. But no, instead, i get punished because the universe doesn't like that i haven't met anyone that i felt a connection with. Oh, of course, i'm sorry universe, I should have been paying better attention. Maybe if i'd ironed all my skirts and put on some extra-shiny lipgloss, we wouldn't be in my awful "single situation" right now! Guess i sure dropped the ball on that one!
The worst part is not that i wasn't invited, because, honestly, if i had gone it would not have been much fun, seeing as i was the only one out of seven that wasn't paired up with someone they "loved", no, the worst part is that i wasn't even a factor in the thought process. It's like, because i'm not in a relationship, there's an automatic block that seperates my name from everyone else's. My name never came up in the conversation because i don't have a boyfriend. And that right there is why i'm upset. I don't care if i ever have a boyfriend, but that fact that i'm no longer even on the same level as every other human being...that is unfair.
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