Aug 17, 2005 20:36
So we had our goodbye banquet (if finger foods and cheesy music are a banquet) tonight. It was weird going because it made me feel all sappy and sad. I had to give myself a reality check that it's really NOT that sad, I really WONT miss most of these people, in fact, most of the time here I haven't even liked these people at all! But I will miss the ten-or-so cool acquaintances I had, and ESPECIALLY my six-or-so AMAZING friends that I made here. Eight weeks really feels like years here.
I keep telling myself that I will see those six again. And I really hope it's true...
I called home today and talked to my dad. Part of me kind of wishes I were going home right now and not doing the Contiki tour. I mean, I know that once it gets closer I will be really excited but right now it just feels like I'm tired and I want to see my family and go back to my life. And one of my uncles, my Portuguese "Tio" who is almost eighty and who has been this benevolent and loving person in my life as long as I can remember, isn't doing so well. He has been having problems with his lungs lately, and last week was his third time [this summer] in the hospital. Now he is at home with an oxygen tank. I just really want him to get better, but at the same time I know that it is getting less and less likely that he will.
I feel guilty sometimes that I don't spend as much time with my family as I should. Or appreciate them as much as I should. Yes, we have our minor problems, but really? I couldn't be luckier.
So yeah, I'm just all over the place. Luckily I have another 800 words of my paper on the Suez Crisis to finish tonight, so that will distract me.