First entry ever !
ummm... this is my first entry... hi... how iz evri 1?
this is apoem that i wrote for my mum....
Pain
Why do you loathe me so much?
I’m supposed to be you’re child,
But I’m invisible to you,
You can’t hear me,
Nor see me.
All I am is a waste of space,
I try so hard to meet your expectations and standards,
But no matter how hard I try,
I shall never succeed,
When I look in the mirror,
All that I see is a stupid bitch,
Whose own family doesn’t want,
You ignore my cries for help,
All that I want is to be loved by you,
But you reject me,
Push me away,
Back into the crowd.
I’m nothing to you,
But you are everything to me,
You may be one person to the world,
But to this one person you are the world.
Why don’t you want me?
Why don’t you care?
Why do you hate me?
I’m consumed by depression,
It’s all I feel everyday,
Confused by your actions?
All I feel is pain,
You love to hate me,
But you also hate to love me.
If I disappeared off the face of this earth,
Would you even notice?
Would you even care?
Would it feel any different?
To how it feels now?
Why don’t you love me?
What have I done wrong?
How can I fix this mess?
The past can’t be undone.
You say you worry,
Do you even care?
Do you just say it,
Because you feel that it’s what I want to hear?
I want to know the truth,
I want to know why,
Why am I breathing?
When I feel like I’m not alive,
I’m terrified,
I’m scared to death,
The world is so hard to face,
every single day,
I wake up hoping to die,
You wish that I was dead.
Do you know how much that hurts me?
When you say that you mean it,
And you’re not actually yelling at me.
You confuse me so much,
So many thoughts are running through my head,
Why do we say the things that we have said?
Why don’t you love me,
All I want is that,
I want you to trust me,
I want you to hold me,
I want you to love me,
But that will never happen.
I know that I have screwed up many times.
And I apologize,
You won’t forgive me,
No matter how much I try,
You are my world Mum,
And I’m sorry.
Love Cassie.
Please love me mum,
It’s all I want from you.
this is apoem that i wrote for my mum....
Pain
Why do you loathe me so much?
I’m supposed to be you’re child,
But I’m invisible to you,
You can’t hear me,
Nor see me.
All I am is a waste of space,
I try so hard to meet your expectations and standards,
But no matter how hard I try,
I shall never succeed,
When I look in the mirror,
All that I see is a stupid bitch,
Whose own family doesn’t want,
You ignore my cries for help,
All that I want is to be loved by you,
But you reject me,
Push me away,
Back into the crowd.
I’m nothing to you,
But you are everything to me,
You may be one person to the world,
But to this one person you are the world.
Why don’t you want me?
Why don’t you care?
Why do you hate me?
I’m consumed by depression,
It’s all I feel everyday,
Confused by your actions?
All I feel is pain,
You love to hate me,
But you also hate to love me.
If I disappeared off the face of this earth,
Would you even notice?
Would you even care?
Would it feel any different?
To how it feels now?
Why don’t you love me?
What have I done wrong?
How can I fix this mess?
The past can’t be undone.
You say you worry,
Do you even care?
Do you just say it,
Because you feel that it’s what I want to hear?
I want to know the truth,
I want to know why,
Why am I breathing?
When I feel like I’m not alive,
I’m terrified,
I’m scared to death,
The world is so hard to face,
every single day,
I wake up hoping to die,
You wish that I was dead.
Do you know how much that hurts me?
When you say that you mean it,
And you’re not actually yelling at me.
You confuse me so much,
So many thoughts are running through my head,
Why do we say the things that we have said?
Why don’t you love me,
All I want is that,
I want you to trust me,
I want you to hold me,
I want you to love me,
But that will never happen.
I know that I have screwed up many times.
And I apologize,
You won’t forgive me,
No matter how much I try,
You are my world Mum,
And I’m sorry.
Love Cassie.
Please love me mum,
It’s all I want from you.