hey hey what a beautiful day
I don't really know why I've been posting so much lately..guess I just feel the need to. Today was def busy, but very sweet.
Went to classes..had a standardized test in phi..easy? idk we see. then genetics was lame, I was in lalaland the whole time.
So before my MRI I went to get a good grilled snack wrap at mcdonalds..ahaha the boy at the window was like "Thank you miss, have a good day and please come to McDonalds again!" Now thats a dedicated worker for ya...kinda made my day.
MRI was quick and easy. There was a mirror in front of my face so the whole half hour I was stuck looking at the bottom half of my face..kinda weird, but in a good way. I just thought about how my life was so different the last time I got my MRI. How Ant came at the end and I got so angry because I knew he just came bc he felt he had to..back then I was falling apart emotionally so badly. So I told him to leave me alone and I just cried the whole way going home thinking could this be my life now? MRIs, doctors, blood work all the time and worst of all being reminded of it everyday with crazy symptoms. So 4 months later, I've come to face my MS and having the mirror in front of my face during my MRI was some deep symbolism right there. I looked at the films, they looked really great so life is good. At least I think they look good?
I came home, mom made a good dinner. We took a family trip to port jeff. It was nice..got some strawb frozen yogurt altho it tasted like chapstick. Still hooved it down lol. I was walking ahead and it was so nice to feel the wind on my cheeks. I did wish someone was there with me tho. I do miss him <3. Alas I loved being with my rents and Buster. Came home, went for a walk around 2 blocks <3.
Last week was absolute shit and magically this week is great. The chiro really fixed my neck and if he could fix my f-ed up breathing then WOW. I always thought the breathing was from my MS and it's really the worst symptom for me. But if the cause is my spine and he could fix it, I think I'd def break down and cry for hours. Wow wow wow, I'd get my life back. Please work..if not, i'll still be ok tho. Got my "kiss MS goodbye" lipgloss and I wore it around all day. Life is def getting sweeter..I used to be so afraid of the future bc I'm unsure what new terrible symptoms MS could bring..but now I'm in control..so hey MS, you are NOT winning. You're not stealing my days and making them bad anymore. I win. A good muscle pose is in order now.
I like this entry, I like this day, I like this year.
Went to classes..had a standardized test in phi..easy? idk we see. then genetics was lame, I was in lalaland the whole time.
So before my MRI I went to get a good grilled snack wrap at mcdonalds..ahaha the boy at the window was like "Thank you miss, have a good day and please come to McDonalds again!" Now thats a dedicated worker for ya...kinda made my day.
MRI was quick and easy. There was a mirror in front of my face so the whole half hour I was stuck looking at the bottom half of my face..kinda weird, but in a good way. I just thought about how my life was so different the last time I got my MRI. How Ant came at the end and I got so angry because I knew he just came bc he felt he had to..back then I was falling apart emotionally so badly. So I told him to leave me alone and I just cried the whole way going home thinking could this be my life now? MRIs, doctors, blood work all the time and worst of all being reminded of it everyday with crazy symptoms. So 4 months later, I've come to face my MS and having the mirror in front of my face during my MRI was some deep symbolism right there. I looked at the films, they looked really great so life is good. At least I think they look good?
I came home, mom made a good dinner. We took a family trip to port jeff. It was nice..got some strawb frozen yogurt altho it tasted like chapstick. Still hooved it down lol. I was walking ahead and it was so nice to feel the wind on my cheeks. I did wish someone was there with me tho. I do miss him <3. Alas I loved being with my rents and Buster. Came home, went for a walk around 2 blocks <3.
Last week was absolute shit and magically this week is great. The chiro really fixed my neck and if he could fix my f-ed up breathing then WOW. I always thought the breathing was from my MS and it's really the worst symptom for me. But if the cause is my spine and he could fix it, I think I'd def break down and cry for hours. Wow wow wow, I'd get my life back. Please work..if not, i'll still be ok tho. Got my "kiss MS goodbye" lipgloss and I wore it around all day. Life is def getting sweeter..I used to be so afraid of the future bc I'm unsure what new terrible symptoms MS could bring..but now I'm in control..so hey MS, you are NOT winning. You're not stealing my days and making them bad anymore. I win. A good muscle pose is in order now.
I like this entry, I like this day, I like this year.