family sucks
I'm bored.
Like, really, really bored. I guess it's semi-good that work starts up in about a month (GOD WE START SO EARLY!) but, the beginning of the year is the worst time for me. I'm always so terrified, I get horrible anxiety. All teachers are nervous especially about their future students and never sleep the night before the first day of school, but I get nervous because I'm not sure I'll be back in kindergarten next year. Obviously, I want to be back. But it's up to the principal to decide. I think I'll be back, but you never know. And if I'm with the kids I was with last year... I'll apply for a transfer immediately.
Tonight is Tom Petty's concert. I love him - another legend to see this year, but it's SO HOT OUTSIDE. Currently, as of 2:42 pm, it's 89 out and feels like 97. Shoot me. Working outside is a bitch when it's this unbearable. Summer in Cincinnati is such a joy. At least my friend Jessica will be at the concert! And in the lawn, where I typically work! SWEET!
Last night I planned on going for a walk, but I ended up running half of the time. I bet I ran at least a mile. It's been months and months since I've even walked a good distance. I'm pretty proud, considering it felt like 90 when I did it (AT TEN O'CLOCK AT NIGHT!) Maybe I'll start doing it more often. Don't wanna be out of shape (aka fat on the inside!)
Okay, so we've had a major falling out with my grandma TEN YEARS AGO. She cut her daughters out of her life, and wrote nasty letters to them basically bashing them hardcore. She eventually said she no longer wanted to be their mom. Damn right? Well she has a sister and we used to hang out with them and their kids and their kids all the time. They cut us out too when this happened, but they were told by my grandma that is was my mom and my aunt who cut HER out. Hmmm. Their adopted daughter, Kelley, never cared and still talked to my mom frequently until her sudden death last summer. After she died, their one son, Jeff, started occasionally talking to my mom. Well, I'm friends with him on Facebook and desperately want to e-mail my great aunt and uncle. He gave me the green light after talking to them, and now I'm terrified.
First of all, everything they believe is a lie. I'm not sure if I should say that or not. Part of me wants them to confront grandma and make her pay for what she's done. But part of me thinks that's cruel. Another problem is that I do NOT want them to give out my e-mail to my grandma, or update her on where I work. I will probably be pretty unclear as to where I work. And I want all of us to get together minus my grandma, but uncle Tony told my mom when this all happened that he wanted nothing to do with her anymore. So that looks unlikely. I'll probably compose some kind of awkward e-mail when I'm done updating. Ugh, just thinking about it now makes my heart race and my stomach hurt. Pathetic that I'm scared of people in their mid 70's.
This'll be interesting!
PS - everyone check out the new single (album?) called Ice Cream Syndrome by Sukima Switch. Amazing songs. There's only 3 different songs on the CD (Youtube them, they're on there) but they're amazing and beautiful.
Like, really, really bored. I guess it's semi-good that work starts up in about a month (GOD WE START SO EARLY!) but, the beginning of the year is the worst time for me. I'm always so terrified, I get horrible anxiety. All teachers are nervous especially about their future students and never sleep the night before the first day of school, but I get nervous because I'm not sure I'll be back in kindergarten next year. Obviously, I want to be back. But it's up to the principal to decide. I think I'll be back, but you never know. And if I'm with the kids I was with last year... I'll apply for a transfer immediately.
Tonight is Tom Petty's concert. I love him - another legend to see this year, but it's SO HOT OUTSIDE. Currently, as of 2:42 pm, it's 89 out and feels like 97. Shoot me. Working outside is a bitch when it's this unbearable. Summer in Cincinnati is such a joy. At least my friend Jessica will be at the concert! And in the lawn, where I typically work! SWEET!
Last night I planned on going for a walk, but I ended up running half of the time. I bet I ran at least a mile. It's been months and months since I've even walked a good distance. I'm pretty proud, considering it felt like 90 when I did it (AT TEN O'CLOCK AT NIGHT!) Maybe I'll start doing it more often. Don't wanna be out of shape (aka fat on the inside!)
Okay, so we've had a major falling out with my grandma TEN YEARS AGO. She cut her daughters out of her life, and wrote nasty letters to them basically bashing them hardcore. She eventually said she no longer wanted to be their mom. Damn right? Well she has a sister and we used to hang out with them and their kids and their kids all the time. They cut us out too when this happened, but they were told by my grandma that is was my mom and my aunt who cut HER out. Hmmm. Their adopted daughter, Kelley, never cared and still talked to my mom frequently until her sudden death last summer. After she died, their one son, Jeff, started occasionally talking to my mom. Well, I'm friends with him on Facebook and desperately want to e-mail my great aunt and uncle. He gave me the green light after talking to them, and now I'm terrified.
First of all, everything they believe is a lie. I'm not sure if I should say that or not. Part of me wants them to confront grandma and make her pay for what she's done. But part of me thinks that's cruel. Another problem is that I do NOT want them to give out my e-mail to my grandma, or update her on where I work. I will probably be pretty unclear as to where I work. And I want all of us to get together minus my grandma, but uncle Tony told my mom when this all happened that he wanted nothing to do with her anymore. So that looks unlikely. I'll probably compose some kind of awkward e-mail when I'm done updating. Ugh, just thinking about it now makes my heart race and my stomach hurt. Pathetic that I'm scared of people in their mid 70's.
This'll be interesting!
PS - everyone check out the new single (album?) called Ice Cream Syndrome by Sukima Switch. Amazing songs. There's only 3 different songs on the CD (Youtube them, they're on there) but they're amazing and beautiful.