a couple thoughts...laugh4life15July 23 2008, 14:48:51 UTC
"I'm not sure what love is anymore. I used to think it's thinking someone is more wonderful than anything in the entire world. That they think you are the most magical creature."
It took me a long time to fall in love, and I found that I felt this way for about a week--a week of an old friend coming back into my life, where I was in a ohmygodihadforgottenhowamazingyouareiloveyou kind of whirlwind. But then, for me anyway, it settles into this comfortable, amazing warmth that just seems to permeate my eyes, my smile. There is magic in it, of course, but I know if I'd like to be viewed as some magical, other-wordly creature, because that line of thought doesn't seem tangible and lasting to me. this kind of love seems to stem from a seasonal rather than lifer person.
"I am a hundred percent positive that soulmates exist. I just don't know if most people in the world find their other half. I think some do. Others just decide to settle. Because they are afraid. Afraid to be alone. Afraid to be hurt. Or hurt others."
I think they do too. I was talking to my friend Jackie about this a week or two ago, and she told me something really helpful--Soulmates exist, but most of the pain we endure in relationships with people (friends and significant others) is sorting out whether people are seasonal in your life or permanent fixtures. So many painful long goodbyes are the result of not accepting that some people, albeit amazing, are only meant to touch/change you for a certain amount of time, and then its time to say goodbye. The settling part comes in often when people decide to not let go of a seasonal person in their life (a reason often being that they are scared/unprepared to accept someone lasting)--i am in that group of people. i spent a long time drawing people towards me that i knew wouldn't last so i wouldn't get hurt--well, i got hurt, but it was a shallower level of hurt that i knew i could cope with.
a lot of people do eventually find their soulmates, but i think people get so bogged down with the temporaries that they exert most of their energy holding on for dear life in fruitless situations, and it impedes finding what you're really looking for.
my thoughts are a little all over the place, but hopefully that made sense. do you relate to any of that? your entry just made me think about some things that i've already been thinking about, so i thought id mind-splooge to you!
i hope things are going to go better for you. sometimes its easier to talk to someone who is completely removed from your life, because they're uninvolved and such. if you need such person, don't hesitate to email or call me. im sending good juju to you.
It took me a long time to fall in love, and I found that I felt this way for about a week--a week of an old friend coming back into my life, where I was in a ohmygodihadforgottenhowamazingyouareiloveyou kind of whirlwind. But then, for me anyway, it settles into this comfortable, amazing warmth that just seems to permeate my eyes, my smile. There is magic in it, of course, but I know if I'd like to be viewed as some magical, other-wordly creature, because that line of thought doesn't seem tangible and lasting to me. this kind of love seems to stem from a seasonal rather than lifer person.
"I am a hundred percent positive that soulmates exist. I just don't know if most people in the world find their other half. I think some do. Others just decide to settle. Because they are afraid. Afraid to be alone. Afraid to be hurt. Or hurt others."
I think they do too. I was talking to my friend Jackie about this a week or two ago, and she told me something really helpful--Soulmates exist, but most of the pain we endure in relationships with people (friends and significant others) is sorting out whether people are seasonal in your life or permanent fixtures. So many painful long goodbyes are the result of not accepting that some people, albeit amazing, are only meant to touch/change you for a certain amount of time, and then its time to say goodbye. The settling part comes in often when people decide to not let go of a seasonal person in their life (a reason often being that they are scared/unprepared to accept someone lasting)--i am in that group of people. i spent a long time drawing people towards me that i knew wouldn't last so i wouldn't get hurt--well, i got hurt, but it was a shallower level of hurt that i knew i could cope with.
a lot of people do eventually find their soulmates, but i think people get so bogged down with the temporaries that they exert most of their energy holding on for dear life in fruitless situations, and it impedes finding what you're really looking for.
my thoughts are a little all over the place, but hopefully that made sense. do you relate to any of that? your entry just made me think about some things that i've already been thinking about, so i thought id mind-splooge to you!
i hope things are going to go better for you. sometimes its easier to talk to someone who is completely removed from your life, because they're uninvolved and such. if you need such person, don't hesitate to email or call me. im sending good juju to you.
be well.
genevieve:)
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