Disappearing
I really enjoy living off campus, except I feel like I have isolated myself off from what I am so used to...being on campus. I feel like I haven't really been working on trying to see people, and I really should start doing that. I just feel so far away from everything...I really need to get out of this goddamn house though, as much as I love it.
One of my closest and dearest friends is leaving for basic training on Tuesday. I've been thinking about him leaving the past couple of days, and the thing is, I'm so happy for him, if joining the army makes him happy. But I'm going to miss him and all of his stupid bullshit that I have come to love about him. I think we can all be selfish, and in a way, I feel like I am losing him, on a certain level. He'll be gone for a long time...and...he reminds me that I am still alive, and I have so very few people in my life right now that make me feel like that. I need him in my life, as my friend, because he brings out something in myself I forget I have. I think that's what's so wonderful about certain people you come across in this life. When you are with them, speaking with them...laughing with them, you see something in yourself that you have had all along, but never realized. Some people you come across in life, make you want to be better, try harder, feel more. He makes me really laugh, and I'm going to miss his presence in my life. I feel like I'm losing him all over again. When I'm around him though, I feel happy...alive.
I really need to get out of this house.
One of my closest and dearest friends is leaving for basic training on Tuesday. I've been thinking about him leaving the past couple of days, and the thing is, I'm so happy for him, if joining the army makes him happy. But I'm going to miss him and all of his stupid bullshit that I have come to love about him. I think we can all be selfish, and in a way, I feel like I am losing him, on a certain level. He'll be gone for a long time...and...he reminds me that I am still alive, and I have so very few people in my life right now that make me feel like that. I need him in my life, as my friend, because he brings out something in myself I forget I have. I think that's what's so wonderful about certain people you come across in this life. When you are with them, speaking with them...laughing with them, you see something in yourself that you have had all along, but never realized. Some people you come across in life, make you want to be better, try harder, feel more. He makes me really laugh, and I'm going to miss his presence in my life. I feel like I'm losing him all over again. When I'm around him though, I feel happy...alive.
I really need to get out of this house.