losing the guarantee
My back hurts its pulsing with pain. I can feel the pulse spread until it reaches my head. And at that moment I experience painful throbbing headaches.
I feel depressed…..
I’m crying because my back hurts, this is the first time anything like this has ever happened to me I don’t know how I hurt it.
And with my aches comes the painful realization of my weakness
I’m never like this I’m invincible I don’t get cramps I don’t get side aches I don’t get sick very badly I never get hurt I can run my body to exhaustion and it will be fine. I workout so hard that my lungs swell and close but I keep going
I don’t stop I don’t slowdown
I am stronger then all you people
They say that after 20 it goes down hill. I’m not twenty I’m fifteen. Everyone I know except me (till now) has physical problems. They’ve had them since middle school. Well I have one (asthma) but I don’t let it stop me.
The realization that change will come to the life I have been so thankful for, for so long is so hard to accept
I watched people fall to emotional and physical pain to the point that they will have scars for life. I was there with them. The same things happened to me. I am fine, I dealt with it. I don’t feel hate. I don’t have scars.
And now….. With this pain that pulses through my body….. I have dropped and will soon be with those who could not conquer theirs.
I’m sorry you’re probably thinking I’m overreacting
I’ve lost the one thing that made me better then every one else