I'm in a Weird mOod.....
"Sometimes we love people so much that we have to be numb to it, because if we actually felt how much we loved them.. It would kill us."
You know things couldnt be better, I grow to love Curt more everyday that I am with him or even when i just think about him....he's amazing and he makes me feel so good about myself and life. Like honestly what more could a girl want then a guy who sincerely cares for her and wants her around because she is equally important to him as he is to her? Curt is pretty fabulous and I cant believe I have been so fortunate to have the experiences I share with him everyday.....Like shoot I went skydiving with him and his family before his brother Chads wedding, like he just gets me to live life and enjoy it! seriously i think everyone needs to go skydiving before they die, and i cant wait till my sister and i get to do it together!
However,
Life is great, and I am so happy...I have never been this happy before, but its nights like tonight when I look at the past and realize I wouldnt have changed anything that has happened in the past but I just wonder why I made some dumb mistakes or decided something over something else, like granted it got me to where I am now, but I just wonder why sometimes why things happen like they do and it bothers me that I dont have an answer to my question.....Like I wonder why people come into my life then go, or like why I said that stupid thing to my parents that made them sad for a day or two till i got them to understand where i was coming from.....or why all of a sudden no matter how many times this one person comes in and out of my life somehow they always end up right back in it and they like know more about me then i do.....like why is that? I dunno i guess i am just asking the impossible because i wish there was an answer.
I guess i am just silly, but goodnight....love to all (mostly)
Erika