2016.03.20 Personal update -- I am old...
Hey guys!
So today was my high school best friend's baby shower. For those who don't know, a baby shower is basically a party celebrating the mother and the unborn baby and people get to give gifts and onesies and diapers and the non-pregnant people get to drink wine and vodka and have a fabulous time.
Okay, I may have exaggerated on the vodka part.
But because I was so deathly sick yesterday, I had no time whatsoever to go and buy her a present until this morning. So I went out to Walmart and stocked up on onsies and baby wash and diapers and anything small a baby might need.
That led me to the following conclusions about where I am in my life:
1) I work at a preschool and I know nothing about babies. I had to call my sister to find out what the difference is between this baby wash and that baby wash. I got a few interesting looks from passerbys too. A worker even asked me if all of this stuff was for me. Believe me, its not. Unless God decided to make me the next Virgin Mother, I am not pregnant.
2) Baby diapers are so effing expensive! (seriously tho! A pack of 32 diapers for $5.97?) I have a greater appreciation for mothers and what they have to spend in order to keep their child happy. Like, holy crap.
3) I am officially old if I am standing in the middle of Walmart buying baby stuff for my best friend from high school.
Granted, I'm not that old! I'm only 21 years old. But it really makes one feel old when three of your friends from high school have already had a baby. I can barely hold a steady relationship as it is, how are you people able to stay together that long?!
It also makes me feel old when I go to work and I'm considered a veteran because I've been there longer than three years. Kids that I helped potty train are going into kindergarten! Like, what the hell happened?! You're supposed to be sweet and loving, not kicking and hitting and tattle taling on everyone around you!
I feel restless and unable to hold onto things that used to be so easy to cling to. Is all of this what it feels like to be old? Because if it is, please take me back to where I was eighteen and forty pounds lighter and I could actually write and update at a decent time!
That being said, 'IM SO SORRY. I'M TRYING. It's just that... I don't know, work is literally killing any sort of happiness I have right now and how can I write if I'm so tired all the time? I am working though... Or at least I'm trying to.
I hate getting old.
So today was my high school best friend's baby shower. For those who don't know, a baby shower is basically a party celebrating the mother and the unborn baby and people get to give gifts and onesies and diapers and the non-pregnant people get to drink wine and vodka and have a fabulous time.
Okay, I may have exaggerated on the vodka part.
But because I was so deathly sick yesterday, I had no time whatsoever to go and buy her a present until this morning. So I went out to Walmart and stocked up on onsies and baby wash and diapers and anything small a baby might need.
That led me to the following conclusions about where I am in my life:
1) I work at a preschool and I know nothing about babies. I had to call my sister to find out what the difference is between this baby wash and that baby wash. I got a few interesting looks from passerbys too. A worker even asked me if all of this stuff was for me. Believe me, its not. Unless God decided to make me the next Virgin Mother, I am not pregnant.
2) Baby diapers are so effing expensive! (seriously tho! A pack of 32 diapers for $5.97?) I have a greater appreciation for mothers and what they have to spend in order to keep their child happy. Like, holy crap.
3) I am officially old if I am standing in the middle of Walmart buying baby stuff for my best friend from high school.
Granted, I'm not that old! I'm only 21 years old. But it really makes one feel old when three of your friends from high school have already had a baby. I can barely hold a steady relationship as it is, how are you people able to stay together that long?!
It also makes me feel old when I go to work and I'm considered a veteran because I've been there longer than three years. Kids that I helped potty train are going into kindergarten! Like, what the hell happened?! You're supposed to be sweet and loving, not kicking and hitting and tattle taling on everyone around you!
I feel restless and unable to hold onto things that used to be so easy to cling to. Is all of this what it feels like to be old? Because if it is, please take me back to where I was eighteen and forty pounds lighter and I could actually write and update at a decent time!
That being said, 'IM SO SORRY. I'M TRYING. It's just that... I don't know, work is literally killing any sort of happiness I have right now and how can I write if I'm so tired all the time? I am working though... Or at least I'm trying to.
I hate getting old.