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Fuc k all my other posts honestly. Destiny, passion, pure emotion.. sprouting from one seed. Barried deep in the soul. Pushing lose through the mind as it's chains grapple the heart putting tension on it the same as it clears away the fog and lies one puts on himself since... forever. Oh such a joyous and heart wrecking moment. I shake free from the shackles that my own demons have put on me. Saliva dripping and flinging from my lip as I shake loose. Feeling parts of me shake off, and in so feelings other parts break lose of their imprisonment. I definetly over-dramaticize the actuallity of the epiphany as I force myself to shake over it, imagining briefly that I'm shaking demons away, with the glimpse of fight club hovering a top my mind's eye as if to contribute to the occassion. And the And epiphany indeed as I finally realize what I am going to be from this moment on. No longer the actions of a boy, I must be the man I am, and will not stop short from what I've become thus far.
The lowest has been reached long ago. I cannot go back, not even on will. It is obvious that my path is climbing... I've just gotten to a point where I've been trying to damn the river of destiny with lazyness and just enjoying this bottom before any climb should be made. But now I have the only tool I need in my hands, my heart. And as cheesy as it sounds, my heart beats not to what I think I want, but to it's own needs for a certain connection with nature I may never know. More on this later.
The lowest has been reached long ago. I cannot go back, not even on will. It is obvious that my path is climbing... I've just gotten to a point where I've been trying to damn the river of destiny with lazyness and just enjoying this bottom before any climb should be made. But now I have the only tool I need in my hands, my heart. And as cheesy as it sounds, my heart beats not to what I think I want, but to it's own needs for a certain connection with nature I may never know. More on this later.