Hey... I swear I'm alive
Other than this one line, that is completely spoiler free but I'll put it under a cut anyways, this post will in no way mention Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
Just reading the book is making me imagine how awesome the fight scenes in the movie are gonna be, then that got me thinking, what are the actors thinking as they read the book? Especially the ones that died. Are they sitting there going. "Well that sucks. I'm dead." or are they getting all excited imagining how their death scene is going to look? I don't know. It was just an errant thought that I decided to throw down.
A lot of people have been saying that they were satisfied/happy with the ending, But honestly, I'm not. It's kinda like how I felt about the ending of the second season of Digimon. Sad that it's done. Mad at some of the couplings (although I've long since gotten over that irrational anger (it kinda coincided with my rediscovering of a few digimon fanfics... and a certai yaoi couple, that I never would have liked/even been aware of the possibility back when I was first watching the show in early middle school) and overall just not all that crazy about it. It does tie up loose ends and it finalize some stuff, but it really only covered what happened to some of the characters. I wanted to know more about what happened to other characters.
also another thought... remember that rumor that came about right around the release of book three? The one about the last word in the last book being 'scar'. Well it isn't but, being the english/grammar geek that I am, I found a way to re-word the last sentence so it ends on the word 'scar' and still stays in context. But I swear that's the only semi-spoilerish thing that's in this cut.
I've added it up and it took me 10 hours total to finish the book, give or take ten minutes. But Friday, Saturday and Sunday I worked 8hour shifts so I wasn't 10 consequtive hours like the last two books.
Okay so I lied. It was more like three paragraphs than one line, but it was completely spoiler free.
Hey who wants an update about my life? No one probably because I pretty much only have real life friends on here and I talk to them in person, far more often that I update this.... for the most part... although that truly doesn't say much because I'm horrible at coraspondence and even worse at updating this. And I'm supposed to be a journalism major... I know I know...
So I've been slacking off about my paperwork for study abroad lately, which is worrying me because now I can't get a hold of Allegra, and I know for a fact that the deadlines are in August, probably right before or the week that I have to get back to school. So I have to get serious about the paperwork. This is my written realization that I HAVE to do this.
Went to another endochronologist.... he drew more blood. (His office was husky colored) So a bunch of my levels have skyrocketted. Which got him to a point where a doctor was finally able to pinpoint what the hell is wrong with me. The answer is. I have Hashimoto's Disease. even funnier, my levels that indicate that I have Hashimoto's Disease have been literally through the roof for about the past four years (At least that was the last time any doctor checked those levels). They ruled out Hashimoto's Disease early on because it is in the family of HYPO-thyroid Diseases and all my family members with a history of thyroid problems have had HYPER-thyroid issues. So this new doctor tells me that I should have been on this medicine four years ago. This is a medicine that now that I have started taking it, I have to take it everyday for the rest of my life. fun fun...
Although. It's a small pill and three nights ago. I swallowed a pill for the first time in my life! Mom did a pill jig and it was quite entertaining. I thought that swallowing the pill was going to be the worst part about the medicine, I was wrong. I have to plan how I eat around it. I can't eat two hours before taking the pill and I can't eat for an hour afterwards. Now that I'm taking this medicine I can't eat soy milk, not that this was a big issue. But then I was wrong again. I looked up the medicine on webmd... the pill "MUST be taken with 16 oz. of water (that's two fricken waterbottles) because the pill swells rapidly, usually in the throat and causes choking and gagging some instances ending in death" DEATH?! FROM TAKING A PILL THAT TRULY DOES NOTHING BUT GIVE ME A REPLACEMENT HOROMONE!!!! Oh and all the other "seek emergency medical help" symptoms it listed... I have three out of the five on a DAILY basis!! how the hell am I supposed to know if I should seek emergency medical help?!?!
That's another issue I have with this medicine. I doesn't stop the inevitable destruction of my thyroid. It doesn't deal with any of the symptoms. I doesn't deal with the weight gain, the coldness, the practically arthiritic joints, the hives (which I've since learned are another illness entirely and not related to the thryroid) the skin/hair/nails thing. It does NOTHING!!!! well okay, to be fair, that's not entirely true, this medicine is replacing my thyroid, and I need to start it now so I don't end up hospitalized with a thyroid problem in what the doctor estimated to be five or six years at the latest.
I thought this meant that my little freak show was at an end but nooooooo.... apparently this issue is mostly found in menopausal women. Very rarely are people under the age of 50 diagnoised with my particular brand of thyroid problem.
But on the bright side, at least that's how Dr. McGee put it, because we've discovered it so early (in my age, not in length of illness) I probably won't be hospitalized with thyroid related problems (aside from those associated with child birth, i'll come back to this point later) and I probably won't have to get my thyroid removed or radiated. SERIOUSLY!!! come up with something better that "well at least we aren't cutting a chunk out of your throat or trying to turn you into a seventies comic book super hero!"
so as soon at he mentioned childbirth my mom freaked out. "Does this mean she can't have any kids?!" and from there the conversation detoriorated into my mother trying to make the doctor promise that I could have kids. Apparently I just need to up my dose of medicine or else the kid's IQ is guarenteed to drop five points. Oh goody. But far more disturbing was my mother. She never seemed to be the grandchild obsessed parent, she was relatively tame compared to her sisters. But this frantic "She can have kids right?!" threat came completely out of the blue. I've been telling her that I'm not going to have kids. She can get grandbrats from brat boy not me. But I honestly don't think i've been the object of a more embarassing discussion in my life, and I've been the center of some pretty embarassing ones. Writing it here isn't really embarassing, it still kinda is, but just the expressions and emotions in that room.... ai yai yai... I never want to even think about again.
I've had a bit of time to brood on this whole thyroid issue, so I finally got to a point where I could actually say something and have it come across as reasonably understandable. Oh and also apparently Hashimotos has a strong connection with diabeties and rhumatoid arthritis. I've been saying for years that I know I'm going to end up diabetic and this is just one more point to add to the argument.
Okay. So Enough about thyroids.
It's depressing. I haven't really seen anyone this summer. I go back to school in literally 20 days and I've seen Camille and few times and Sean a few times, but everyone else I've only seen for a few hours total. I know its partially my fault because I literally work a 48 hour work week and its the most awkward of hours because it;s noon to 9 or 10 every night. I feel like I've had no summer and I don't know how to fix it.
Well the week of august 5 -11 are mine. So everyone needs to be here because I want to see everyone. Me and Sean and Camille were talking about a bowling trip, and we all still need to go to sushiland and I STILL HAVEN'T SEEN PIRATES YET!!! oh and one of the nights I'm gonna have a movie night/birthday party, because I'll be at band camp for my birthday again this year. So all of you who are reading this, try not to make too many plans for that week and at least DEFINATELY keep the fifth and tenth open. the tenth will probably be the movie night.
Okay, so it's been two hours. I'm gonna go take my pill. Night everyone hope I actually get to see you this summer!
Just reading the book is making me imagine how awesome the fight scenes in the movie are gonna be, then that got me thinking, what are the actors thinking as they read the book? Especially the ones that died. Are they sitting there going. "Well that sucks. I'm dead." or are they getting all excited imagining how their death scene is going to look? I don't know. It was just an errant thought that I decided to throw down.
A lot of people have been saying that they were satisfied/happy with the ending, But honestly, I'm not. It's kinda like how I felt about the ending of the second season of Digimon. Sad that it's done. Mad at some of the couplings (although I've long since gotten over that irrational anger (it kinda coincided with my rediscovering of a few digimon fanfics... and a certai yaoi couple, that I never would have liked/even been aware of the possibility back when I was first watching the show in early middle school) and overall just not all that crazy about it. It does tie up loose ends and it finalize some stuff, but it really only covered what happened to some of the characters. I wanted to know more about what happened to other characters.
also another thought... remember that rumor that came about right around the release of book three? The one about the last word in the last book being 'scar'. Well it isn't but, being the english/grammar geek that I am, I found a way to re-word the last sentence so it ends on the word 'scar' and still stays in context. But I swear that's the only semi-spoilerish thing that's in this cut.
I've added it up and it took me 10 hours total to finish the book, give or take ten minutes. But Friday, Saturday and Sunday I worked 8hour shifts so I wasn't 10 consequtive hours like the last two books.
Okay so I lied. It was more like three paragraphs than one line, but it was completely spoiler free.
Hey who wants an update about my life? No one probably because I pretty much only have real life friends on here and I talk to them in person, far more often that I update this.... for the most part... although that truly doesn't say much because I'm horrible at coraspondence and even worse at updating this. And I'm supposed to be a journalism major... I know I know...
So I've been slacking off about my paperwork for study abroad lately, which is worrying me because now I can't get a hold of Allegra, and I know for a fact that the deadlines are in August, probably right before or the week that I have to get back to school. So I have to get serious about the paperwork. This is my written realization that I HAVE to do this.
Went to another endochronologist.... he drew more blood. (His office was husky colored) So a bunch of my levels have skyrocketted. Which got him to a point where a doctor was finally able to pinpoint what the hell is wrong with me. The answer is. I have Hashimoto's Disease. even funnier, my levels that indicate that I have Hashimoto's Disease have been literally through the roof for about the past four years (At least that was the last time any doctor checked those levels). They ruled out Hashimoto's Disease early on because it is in the family of HYPO-thyroid Diseases and all my family members with a history of thyroid problems have had HYPER-thyroid issues. So this new doctor tells me that I should have been on this medicine four years ago. This is a medicine that now that I have started taking it, I have to take it everyday for the rest of my life. fun fun...
Although. It's a small pill and three nights ago. I swallowed a pill for the first time in my life! Mom did a pill jig and it was quite entertaining. I thought that swallowing the pill was going to be the worst part about the medicine, I was wrong. I have to plan how I eat around it. I can't eat two hours before taking the pill and I can't eat for an hour afterwards. Now that I'm taking this medicine I can't eat soy milk, not that this was a big issue. But then I was wrong again. I looked up the medicine on webmd... the pill "MUST be taken with 16 oz. of water (that's two fricken waterbottles) because the pill swells rapidly, usually in the throat and causes choking and gagging some instances ending in death" DEATH?! FROM TAKING A PILL THAT TRULY DOES NOTHING BUT GIVE ME A REPLACEMENT HOROMONE!!!! Oh and all the other "seek emergency medical help" symptoms it listed... I have three out of the five on a DAILY basis!! how the hell am I supposed to know if I should seek emergency medical help?!?!
That's another issue I have with this medicine. I doesn't stop the inevitable destruction of my thyroid. It doesn't deal with any of the symptoms. I doesn't deal with the weight gain, the coldness, the practically arthiritic joints, the hives (which I've since learned are another illness entirely and not related to the thryroid) the skin/hair/nails thing. It does NOTHING!!!! well okay, to be fair, that's not entirely true, this medicine is replacing my thyroid, and I need to start it now so I don't end up hospitalized with a thyroid problem in what the doctor estimated to be five or six years at the latest.
I thought this meant that my little freak show was at an end but nooooooo.... apparently this issue is mostly found in menopausal women. Very rarely are people under the age of 50 diagnoised with my particular brand of thyroid problem.
But on the bright side, at least that's how Dr. McGee put it, because we've discovered it so early (in my age, not in length of illness) I probably won't be hospitalized with thyroid related problems (aside from those associated with child birth, i'll come back to this point later) and I probably won't have to get my thyroid removed or radiated. SERIOUSLY!!! come up with something better that "well at least we aren't cutting a chunk out of your throat or trying to turn you into a seventies comic book super hero!"
so as soon at he mentioned childbirth my mom freaked out. "Does this mean she can't have any kids?!" and from there the conversation detoriorated into my mother trying to make the doctor promise that I could have kids. Apparently I just need to up my dose of medicine or else the kid's IQ is guarenteed to drop five points. Oh goody. But far more disturbing was my mother. She never seemed to be the grandchild obsessed parent, she was relatively tame compared to her sisters. But this frantic "She can have kids right?!" threat came completely out of the blue. I've been telling her that I'm not going to have kids. She can get grandbrats from brat boy not me. But I honestly don't think i've been the object of a more embarassing discussion in my life, and I've been the center of some pretty embarassing ones. Writing it here isn't really embarassing, it still kinda is, but just the expressions and emotions in that room.... ai yai yai... I never want to even think about again.
I've had a bit of time to brood on this whole thyroid issue, so I finally got to a point where I could actually say something and have it come across as reasonably understandable. Oh and also apparently Hashimotos has a strong connection with diabeties and rhumatoid arthritis. I've been saying for years that I know I'm going to end up diabetic and this is just one more point to add to the argument.
Okay. So Enough about thyroids.
It's depressing. I haven't really seen anyone this summer. I go back to school in literally 20 days and I've seen Camille and few times and Sean a few times, but everyone else I've only seen for a few hours total. I know its partially my fault because I literally work a 48 hour work week and its the most awkward of hours because it;s noon to 9 or 10 every night. I feel like I've had no summer and I don't know how to fix it.
Well the week of august 5 -11 are mine. So everyone needs to be here because I want to see everyone. Me and Sean and Camille were talking about a bowling trip, and we all still need to go to sushiland and I STILL HAVEN'T SEEN PIRATES YET!!! oh and one of the nights I'm gonna have a movie night/birthday party, because I'll be at band camp for my birthday again this year. So all of you who are reading this, try not to make too many plans for that week and at least DEFINATELY keep the fifth and tenth open. the tenth will probably be the movie night.
Okay, so it's been two hours. I'm gonna go take my pill. Night everyone hope I actually get to see you this summer!