off to....
Tomorrow I head off to San Diego. I'm glad to be going. It will be nice to get out of Humboldt County. Nice to have a little vacation. Nice to escape all the familiar locations.
I'm taking the bus down to the bay and my sister is picking me up. Crap. I need to email her directions to the bus station. ...anyway. I think the time to think will be good for me. I'm still figuring things out.
Today's big disclosure...I'm probably not moving to Niger in September. I'm sad and happy about this all at once. It opens up a lot of feelings and emotions ...a lot of avenues places to go..and yet leaves me feeling quite dirction-less. I think eventually I'll need to grieve the loss of this huge part of my life but for today I'm ok. maybe what I've been doing for the past three weeks is grieving? I'm not sure.
The truth is I have an idea of where I may be going instead..but I'm not quite ready to share it. I'm excited though. Am I just excited to cover up everything else I feel? I hope not. and I don't think so.
nevertheless getting away, seeing my mom, these things will be good for me.
See you next week Humboldt County.
I'm taking the bus down to the bay and my sister is picking me up. Crap. I need to email her directions to the bus station. ...anyway. I think the time to think will be good for me. I'm still figuring things out.
Today's big disclosure...I'm probably not moving to Niger in September. I'm sad and happy about this all at once. It opens up a lot of feelings and emotions ...a lot of avenues places to go..and yet leaves me feeling quite dirction-less. I think eventually I'll need to grieve the loss of this huge part of my life but for today I'm ok. maybe what I've been doing for the past three weeks is grieving? I'm not sure.
The truth is I have an idea of where I may be going instead..but I'm not quite ready to share it. I'm excited though. Am I just excited to cover up everything else I feel? I hope not. and I don't think so.
nevertheless getting away, seeing my mom, these things will be good for me.
See you next week Humboldt County.