Shoop
My mom took me out to lunch again. It was Thai food and it was awesome. I even had a cherry coke. Hobby would've freaked out had he seen me drinking coke and "poisoning" the baby. My mom is a really cool person. Even though, when I complain about life, she says things like,"Well honey, just pray about it and things'll work out. Everything works out in the end." She's a pretty optimistic person most of the time but it's all basically fueled by religion. Mostly. Sometimes that gets to me but she's so fucking happy about it all that it's hard to get mad at her for it. Especially since how great she's been to me lately. At least she's not spewing hellfire and forcing me to go to church with them on Sundays. At least she recognizes that I still have free will and respects that.
After lunch we went to the library. I got a few baby books (one of teaching your baby how to sign/ASL), a book called 'What is Your Life's Work?', another book called 'Everyday Spiritual Practice' and lastly 'Living Alone Creatively'. I guess I sort of have a sad little 'who am I?' theme going on. Eh.
I talked to someone about getting a job nearby today. She's a friend of my mothers but is my age. I told her about a place I've been trying to get a job at but they won't so much as even call me back. She asked if I had used a mutual acquaintance of ours as a reference. I said yes. She laughed and said the woman in charge of hiring and our acquaintance were in a college sorority together but HATE eachother. She said,"There's no way she'll call you if you used her as a reference." Fucking great. That job, the hours and the pay, would have been PERFECTT. I keep wondering if there is anyway for that little stuck up bitch to give me some sort of a chance and stop being petty about some feud I wasn't even aware of. Every time I think of calling her up and saying something about it, the things I think to say sound ridiculous and offensive. Fuckiddy fuck fuck fuck.
I need to go back to college. I should never have dropped out. But the thought of going back...er it's not a pretty thought. I'd rather go to a trade school. Spend a year, or two at the very most, to get my degree and be financially secure sounds very good. I just want to be good for this baby. Stressing about money is something I grew up around and it only created anxiety within me, and that's not fair to a child. But what do I do? What should I study? Especially during these tough economic times it's a challenge just deciding what I should be focusing my career goals on. What field should I be looking on getting into when it seems people are losing their jobs in every single area. Life should not have to be so difficult.
After lunch we went to the library. I got a few baby books (one of teaching your baby how to sign/ASL), a book called 'What is Your Life's Work?', another book called 'Everyday Spiritual Practice' and lastly 'Living Alone Creatively'. I guess I sort of have a sad little 'who am I?' theme going on. Eh.
I talked to someone about getting a job nearby today. She's a friend of my mothers but is my age. I told her about a place I've been trying to get a job at but they won't so much as even call me back. She asked if I had used a mutual acquaintance of ours as a reference. I said yes. She laughed and said the woman in charge of hiring and our acquaintance were in a college sorority together but HATE eachother. She said,"There's no way she'll call you if you used her as a reference." Fucking great. That job, the hours and the pay, would have been PERFECTT. I keep wondering if there is anyway for that little stuck up bitch to give me some sort of a chance and stop being petty about some feud I wasn't even aware of. Every time I think of calling her up and saying something about it, the things I think to say sound ridiculous and offensive. Fuckiddy fuck fuck fuck.
I need to go back to college. I should never have dropped out. But the thought of going back...er it's not a pretty thought. I'd rather go to a trade school. Spend a year, or two at the very most, to get my degree and be financially secure sounds very good. I just want to be good for this baby. Stressing about money is something I grew up around and it only created anxiety within me, and that's not fair to a child. But what do I do? What should I study? Especially during these tough economic times it's a challenge just deciding what I should be focusing my career goals on. What field should I be looking on getting into when it seems people are losing their jobs in every single area. Life should not have to be so difficult.