The American Dream

[smeeeeeeeet]

Right now, everything is perfect... I don't think there is one thing that could stand in my way at this moment. How little I knew just how in love I had fallen, how I had loved that girl since that one day at the party where she held me when I was sad. I've loved her ever since then, and things go tangled once erin came along. I look back on the time with Erin and think... all along, that couldn't be love. I was never really in love with Erin, in order to be in love they must love you back. I would more call times with erin temporary insanity, as I can't even remember what I was thinking back then. In short... I fell into another "Nicole" rut...the same thing happened with Erin that happened with Nicole, and I think I've learned my lesson about girls like that. I was not happy when I was "in love" with Erin, and the times when I felt the worst, there was Tasche, to hold and cheer me up ^__^. Took me until now to realize how much I loved her, and apparently how much she loved me. Something I had not known =o was that she had had a huge crush on me since we met. It's the greatest feeling, to have someone to love and love you back. Someone that won't get sick of you. I've woken up nearly every morning at 4:30 to see her. She's always happy when I arrive, and we can't tear ourselves away from each other. The best new thing about it that I recently discovered, is that it IS possible to recieve affection back, something I'm completely not used to. Right now we must keep it a secret that were in love because it will hurt so many people that have crushes on her, I'm afraid it's already hurting people with Ryan already... and then theres Daisy and Graeme who also like her. So we have to keep it hidden or as she calls it I'm her "ummfriend". It's funny though...this secret, we try to keep it from all our friends. We were going to a party that night and we knew unless we purposefully seperated we would ignore everyone else and end up kissing the whole time =\. So we had to stay away from each other the whole party as the temptation was too great. To make up for it beforehand on the Max before we met all our friends she wouldn't stop kissing me and jumping all over me and all the other passengers were laughing because I was blushing so deeply. Then my phone rang and I tried to answer it but I was too shaky and Tasche kept distracting me so I just ended up hanging up. Then once the max came to our stop we had to be all like STOP! Crazy crazy days... My fortune says my love life will be happy and harmonious ^_^ Right now I couldn't ask for more, a good happy relationship with someone I love dearly and who loves me back just as much (and as she claims, more!)I guess my time in life finally came for something to work right with a girl...I am truly grateful and if there is a god...YOU ROCK! hahahaha...I'm silly...I love dis girl ^___^

and the days fly on and on