Sep 22, 2011 20:30
I got lower than average on all of my exam last week.... and didn't pass my anatomy practical and therefore didn't pass my anatomy exam. Fan-fucking-tastic. I hate that I always feel behind, I hate feeling dumb, and I hate feeling like I'm doing everything wrong. I just hate it. I'm not usually like this... I'm always on top of my shit doing homework days beforehand and understanding things as they happen. Now its just so much information that I just don't feel like I have time to do everything to Angie standard.
Not to mention my dad is always on my mind. Cancer is used as an example practically everyday. Cadavers have died of cancer. We see X-rays and it reminds me that we are waiting for scans to see if dad's chemo is working.
This load is really heavy. I'm not sure I can kick my ass into gear and get going like I use to. I just don't know.