its okay baby, someday ill poke holes in your back with my heels

[smallwhitebike]

so im thinking that life is kinda stupid right now and that i want to change that. mostly, id like to have better luck, or better decision making skills or maybe have more common sense. but oh fuck it, too bad i have to live with being myself. but other people have to live with being worse things. like rude, petty, self-obsorbed, stuck-up, fuck-ups, jerk-offs, ass-wipes, and dumb-shits. so yea, being sarah adler isn't SO bad. except for the fact that i feel like the one really good study session ive ever had (in fact, the first time ive studied in about two years) didnt even pay off because im just stupid like that. oh damn, AP is hard. also, i feel like having one of my best friends back from boarding school is just making me pissed off. far away she couldnt annoy me, now all the materialistic and overachiever stuff she pulls drives me nuts. but at least shes motivated by herself. im not motivated by anything except wanting to be better than what i already am, and even that isnt so motivating. once again, im begging to be shot.

oh, and being rejected hurts a lot less when a person shows what a heartless shit they are while doing it. or maybe i just get over stuff really fast. or maybe i never liked him in the first place. i like the latter.

::sarah::