My Second.....?
Yes, I'll consider him my 2nd boyfriend. He was the most exciting/fun/unpredictable guy I'd ever met from MySpace. He's also on the young side - he'll be 23 this Sunday. I'll also describe him as a dominant, volatile, sick fuck....but a nice guy too, when he smiles (I believe) genuinely, with one crooked canine *dreamy sigh*.
At least he was honest with me. Sunday morning, we were bf/gf. Wednesday night, he dumped me because he said he wasn't ready (he's not ready to settle, and if he did, he'll likely cheat on me). *sigh* We'd been dating since...oh, Oct of last year.
Which was ironic because he was the one volunteering to be the bf the week ago and I was rejecting him because *I* wasn't ready. But he's still young. I wasn't going to be his sugar momma.
I have mostly good/funny memories of him. He wasn't a bad guy, he treated me well. He was a bit arrogant, and not romantic, but he was gentlemanly too.
"Why didn't you tell me to stop?" *concerned look*
"I did....I said 'HELP!'"
*we both start laughing*
*we're spooning*
*BWOOT!!!*
*I stiffen in shock* *I think, "oh hell no, I don't know him, and he's a crude guy that enjoys farting in front of women?"*
*silence*
......
"Well GEEZ Alice....I can't BELIEVE you did that!"
"oh no, don't pin it on me!"
*silence*
.....
*I roll over, put a leg on him and imitated his fart with my mouth 'BWOOT!'*
*he starts giggling*
"oh, I wasn't going to broach that subject for a long time. I mean, I'm a gentleman" *giggling*
I think...well at least he didn't do it on purpose.
Oh yeah, and to Danny:
"Do you know what Jay said to me the other day?"
"No, what?"
" 'Ching chang chong-a, chin choon CHOONG!!' "
*laughing in disbelief*
I bought him 28 Days Later and High Tension for his birthday. Both are horror flicks. Since he dumped me before I could give them to him, I briefly thought of who which friends I could recycle this gift with...then realized, most of my friends don't like horror movies. And his card, I wrote "Happy Barfday! To one sick fuck!" Which was true, and his roommate agreed. I dropped it off today and picked up my Punch Drunk Love. I guess I'm a hopeless romantic, but not that I'd ever admit it.
I keep thinking, "hell hatch no fury like a woman scorned."
I already renamed him as "ignore me pls".
I dipped on the bitterest side. I hate being rejected. I actually cried in front of Mike today. I want a guy that I want, and that guy would want ME. This rarely happens. When it does, I run away from the guy...but then I'll come back, to try, if I really wanted to. In the end Jay didn't think I was important enough to be faithful (although he's stated he has not cheated on me, and I believe him). I just don't want to continue with this and waste my time.
And that's the black/white part of me. Part of me wants to try out that grey area - maybe he would be faithful to me...I want to be black and white.
We also did not have the cement of friendship before all this - I see no benefits in continuing the interaction with him.
Well, maybe some benefits, but I'm going to try to stay strong.
At least he was honest with me. Sunday morning, we were bf/gf. Wednesday night, he dumped me because he said he wasn't ready (he's not ready to settle, and if he did, he'll likely cheat on me). *sigh* We'd been dating since...oh, Oct of last year.
Which was ironic because he was the one volunteering to be the bf the week ago and I was rejecting him because *I* wasn't ready. But he's still young. I wasn't going to be his sugar momma.
I have mostly good/funny memories of him. He wasn't a bad guy, he treated me well. He was a bit arrogant, and not romantic, but he was gentlemanly too.
"Why didn't you tell me to stop?" *concerned look*
"I did....I said 'HELP!'"
*we both start laughing*
*we're spooning*
*BWOOT!!!*
*I stiffen in shock* *I think, "oh hell no, I don't know him, and he's a crude guy that enjoys farting in front of women?"*
*silence*
......
"Well GEEZ Alice....I can't BELIEVE you did that!"
"oh no, don't pin it on me!"
*silence*
.....
*I roll over, put a leg on him and imitated his fart with my mouth 'BWOOT!'*
*he starts giggling*
"oh, I wasn't going to broach that subject for a long time. I mean, I'm a gentleman" *giggling*
I think...well at least he didn't do it on purpose.
Oh yeah, and to Danny:
"Do you know what Jay said to me the other day?"
"No, what?"
" 'Ching chang chong-a, chin choon CHOONG!!' "
*laughing in disbelief*
I bought him 28 Days Later and High Tension for his birthday. Both are horror flicks. Since he dumped me before I could give them to him, I briefly thought of who which friends I could recycle this gift with...then realized, most of my friends don't like horror movies. And his card, I wrote "Happy Barfday! To one sick fuck!" Which was true, and his roommate agreed. I dropped it off today and picked up my Punch Drunk Love. I guess I'm a hopeless romantic, but not that I'd ever admit it.
I keep thinking, "hell hatch no fury like a woman scorned."
I already renamed him as "ignore me pls".
I dipped on the bitterest side. I hate being rejected. I actually cried in front of Mike today. I want a guy that I want, and that guy would want ME. This rarely happens. When it does, I run away from the guy...but then I'll come back, to try, if I really wanted to. In the end Jay didn't think I was important enough to be faithful (although he's stated he has not cheated on me, and I believe him). I just don't want to continue with this and waste my time.
And that's the black/white part of me. Part of me wants to try out that grey area - maybe he would be faithful to me...I want to be black and white.
We also did not have the cement of friendship before all this - I see no benefits in continuing the interaction with him.
Well, maybe some benefits, but I'm going to try to stay strong.