im going insane....
*sigh*
if you asked why, then here you go =]
one: my mom lost her job... this means, our already way-too-tight budget is gunna be almost impossible to keep... with two mortgages (damn house in toronto ain't selling) and the big need to relocate soon (relatives are coming here from philippines and who-knows-where-else) are becoming a pain in the ass problem... so that means what i give my mom to help out is probably not so much of a help anymore unless i can give more... which likely i would be doing... *sigh* poverty never agreed with me so hell no im losing to this fight...
two: i think i picked the wrong school to go to. don't get me wrong... CDI has a great MT program... just that i expected to meet A LOT of new people and the problem is just that... there's not A LOT of students that go there... heck not much at all! im glad to know that we are able to use the university of calgary libraries for science as well as their kadaver (? im not sure i spelled that right) labs... im just a little scared for the lab. apparently its the lab where we get to see people all chopped up and we can "play" with them too O_O oh gawd i think i'll likely run out of there... T_T
three: umm issues... lol with people... kaii fine. GUYS! are a big issue. past experiences make it hard for me to trust words coming from guys. i want them to show me. show interest and stuff.. but its so... BLAH! i dont want to tell them straight up what i want coz i feel like they'd think im needy =( so here i am with a dilemma... tell the guy straight up and maybe deal with the fact he'll like me less? or not tell the guy and suffer? hmm..... BLAH why can't guys just y'know read minds! heck i wish I CAN!
four: there's a four? oh yeah! my best friend is having an operation and he lives in toronto... to my dismay, im missing his operation coz its on my youngest bro's bday and among other reasons, i have school AND work to worry about. but i don't want him to go through this alone... of all people i should be there with him and i CAN'T! and pisses the crap out of me... *sigh* sometimes i worry about that kid too much T_T
five: okay seriously i have that much problems? lol probably not... yeah i think four is enough lol
so yes... among smaller reasons, those are why im probably going insane =] (i think im talking to myself now... T_T) *sigh* i am going insane... lol
if you asked why, then here you go =]
one: my mom lost her job... this means, our already way-too-tight budget is gunna be almost impossible to keep... with two mortgages (damn house in toronto ain't selling) and the big need to relocate soon (relatives are coming here from philippines and who-knows-where-else) are becoming a pain in the ass problem... so that means what i give my mom to help out is probably not so much of a help anymore unless i can give more... which likely i would be doing... *sigh* poverty never agreed with me so hell no im losing to this fight...
two: i think i picked the wrong school to go to. don't get me wrong... CDI has a great MT program... just that i expected to meet A LOT of new people and the problem is just that... there's not A LOT of students that go there... heck not much at all! im glad to know that we are able to use the university of calgary libraries for science as well as their kadaver (? im not sure i spelled that right) labs... im just a little scared for the lab. apparently its the lab where we get to see people all chopped up and we can "play" with them too O_O oh gawd i think i'll likely run out of there... T_T
three: umm issues... lol with people... kaii fine. GUYS! are a big issue. past experiences make it hard for me to trust words coming from guys. i want them to show me. show interest and stuff.. but its so... BLAH! i dont want to tell them straight up what i want coz i feel like they'd think im needy =( so here i am with a dilemma... tell the guy straight up and maybe deal with the fact he'll like me less? or not tell the guy and suffer? hmm..... BLAH why can't guys just y'know read minds! heck i wish I CAN!
four: there's a four? oh yeah! my best friend is having an operation and he lives in toronto... to my dismay, im missing his operation coz its on my youngest bro's bday and among other reasons, i have school AND work to worry about. but i don't want him to go through this alone... of all people i should be there with him and i CAN'T! and pisses the crap out of me... *sigh* sometimes i worry about that kid too much T_T
five: okay seriously i have that much problems? lol probably not... yeah i think four is enough lol
so yes... among smaller reasons, those are why im probably going insane =] (i think im talking to myself now... T_T) *sigh* i am going insane... lol