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Something has come up... I will be leaving the school when my uncle arrives tonight. The date of my return, or whether I will be coming back, is still uncertain.
It was a wonderful five years here at Hogwarts and I was expecting to stay even longer... but fate has other plans it seems.
( PRIVATE TO YOH: )
It was a wonderful five years here at Hogwarts and I was expecting to stay even longer... but fate has other plans it seems.
( PRIVATE TO YOH: )
You'll always be a part of me, and I'll seek you out when the time is right. I don't know if we'll be on different sides then. A lot can change over time, and I don't know where you'll be.
I know I never said it, how I really felt. This probably isn't the time, and there may never be a time. I tried to show you. I never meant to be so jealous, and it probably pushed us apart.
I don't know whose arms I'll end up in, but it wouldn't compare to anything I had with you. I just... wanted you to know that.
I never really got along with people. I don't have friends. I have people that I use to gain what I want, people that I manipulate and use to my advantage. But things were never that way with you. It was the only normal relationship I've ever had. It's nice to delude myself into thinking that, at some point, there was one person that... cared deeply. I'll treasure that feeling. I won't have it again.
There's a lot you don't know about my family, and my life. A lot I have to keep secret from you. Maybe someday you can know the truth, but that day will not be today. I'm sorry, Hao.
You've been a good friend, and I... love you. thank you. Goodbye, for as long as goodbye lasts.
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We've been together to long, Yue. Even since my first year you've been by my side. While our paths are diverting on this moment in time it's inevitable that they will reconnect. Our fates are too intertwined. Whether friends or enemies... we will never know. But I will never raise my hand against you.
My emotions are too tighly locked... the bolt is rusted from misuse. But after meeting you and my brother... I'm sure you've noticed me acting strangely. I too am guilty of jealousy. It can be blamed on our youth perhaps. Our inexperience as well. We're both too jaded to fully understand and realize our... relationship.
Yue...
In this entire school the only who knew me was you. The only one who stood up for me, was by my side, constantly aiding whatever endevours I pursued. Others may call it blind loyalty but they know nothing, understand nothing of what we share. Having to leave you behind... I wish you could come with me. But if I reach my hand out to you, Yue, my greatest fear is that you will take it. I will not drag you from your destiny into my shadow. You are my equal. We should stand side by side.
Someday I hope you will be able to tell me the truth. Then perhaps I will share my secrets as well.
You've not only been a good friend to me but the only one and the most precious. I wish I could say... I don't want to leave you with any more hurt. But please believe that this will not be my last goodbye.
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Sometimes feelings are too strong. I thought we'd always be together, but I'll come find you when the time is right, if you don't come find me first. We're still kids, I guess. That's what my Uncle says. I'm just a kid, I don't really know what things are like. I can't decide for myself yet. I don't think that's right, I don't think he understands.
I wonder... if you know where I'll be when I leave this school. I don't know if you'll support it, but it's almost already been decided. I can't tell you just yet, but someday I will.
I grew up never feeling anything. I didn't have parents, just an Uncle who took care of me. We're close, I guess. He's been both my parents and my Uncle all at once. He's always taken care of me, but there's something he couldn't teach me.
Do you remember when I first came? I didn't have any friends. That hasn't changed much, but I wouldn't talk to anyone. I didn't feel anything. I was cold. It showed. I still am, but not as much. Something happened that broke the ice, even if just a little. Even if just for one person.
No one knows me like you know me. No one ever will. I bet that bastard Kaiba is rejoicing that you're gone. Someday, he'll be on the other end of my wand and I won't hesitate to go against him. Someday when we're away from here, and there's no one to tell me what I can and can't do.
No one knows anything about us. They just have no idea. Not your brother, not Souji, not Rukia, not Kaiba, not Ren... nobody. They can call it whatever they want.
If you reached out your hand, I would take it in an instant. But I know I need to stay here. I have my purpose, there's a reason for me to stay. I don't know what it is yet. I would stay in your shadow if it's all you would give me, but I know someday I would want something more.
Then let's promise. When we're away from here, we can share those secrets. Things that can't get around school, around to other people. I've always wanted to open up and say those things, but I know I can't.
Sometimes being apart is necessary. Did you know that I never even met my parents? Not that I remember. They're still alive, but there's a reason why we're apart. Someday you might meet them. I'll see them after I'm done at Hogwarts.
This isn't over. I won't let it be over. I would wait forever for you. So let's not let this be it. I'll send you owls if I can, if your Uncle won't keep them from you.
I... told Yachiru this. I think I should tell you. I regretted that I never had. I know I had the chance, but it's such a hard thing to say.
I never feel for people, so I don't know why this time was different. You gradually became my world, and all that I wanted. So sometime in all these years, I realized I loved you. It's such a strange, unexpected thing for me to feel.
But if you'll let me turn the key in your lock, I'll let you melt my ice. But when we're together again, I don't want other people. I don't want to be jealous, to be angry, to fight with you. I just want you, and I want you to just want the same.
So goodbye, Hao. For now, but not forever.
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