It is Time

[slysom]

for a closure post about Trevor. Which is not to say that I won't think about him ever again, I don't think that's possible. He will NEVER be forgotten by me- he made way too much of an impact on my life for that. But it's time to move on with my life. I can't dwell in the past, and part of the process is moving on. I think, after the Memorial they had the other day, I am ready to write this entry and then that will be it. I've cried, and laughed, and thought.. and thought.. and remembered.. and written poetry.. and remembered.. and talked about it and talkd and talked and talked, and written, etc. So here i will stop talking and remembering, though he still finds ways into my mind on nearly a daily basis, and i'm sure that will continue for a while. But y'all are probably tired of hearing about him, and I can understand that. I only hope you can understand why he was so important to me, ubt I think i told enough stories for that... ;)

So, without further ado, i guess this officially closes the "Trevor Ettinger" chapter of my life, which began on December 14, 2001 and ends today August 7, 2003. Wow, thats really final. I think i have to go cry and write in my other journal now. In fact, I think it's time to write a letter to my sister. and maybe I'll dig around the Bible for a while. there's a lot of good stuff in there. I didn't think this would be so emotional, but I guess that was silly of me. I'm officially closing the Trevor chapter of my life. I never thought I'd have to do this so soon. He was s'posed to be my "future husband"....... :'o(

I'll come back later for a real entry. about ME!