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So my ED habits get triggered by the weirdest things. My mom's comment about me being anorexic didn't do it, neither did my dad asking me why I was eating again. What did it was coming back and finding out that someone had hit my car and left a huge dent in the bumper. I just got this car as a graduation present and it's nice and it's the first real adult thing I've ever had. I'm so careful with it, I wash it all the time and I don't even let people eat in it. I seriously started crying when I saw it. And then I called my parents in tears, hoping they'd tell me it's just metal and plastic and it's okay. Instead they basically told me I didn't know how to drive and that it was my fault and that it probably wasn't even worth fixing it.

It just goes to show that you can't control anything. The one thing I can is my body so that's what I'm doing.