and yeah.
hmm, went 2 a concert 2day.it was rly good and it sounded the exact same live sos that was cool, every1 was staring at me and stuff but aw well. 1 fat lady like 30yrs. old came up 2 me and said "hey, i saw you get abused there a little, way to be yourself" and she put out her hand and i shook her hand. i guess she liked the fact i didnt leave cuz people were staring at me or something, i dont know. but i thought it was rly cool of her and rly nice cuz people were scared 2 even walk close 2 me.
hmm, i cried at the concert lol. the lyrics made me rly think and it got me rly sad. and wow, ive got 2 much on my mind rite now. i honestly am sick of living but i dont think i can do nething drastic rite now, i dont wanna hurt lauren or ilana. every1 else can just go fuck themselves cuz i dont care what you people have 2 say. ive hurt ilana enough as it is, and i cant stand 2 hurt lauren or make her sad.i think i try 2 hard 2 make other people happy..cuz whenever some1 i care about is sad i try my hardest 2 cheer em up, i think i get there mind off of what theyre thinking about sometimes and make em laugh, but i dont know if i honestly make them happy, and with all the efforts i send 2 other people there isnt enough left in me 2 try and make myself happy.aw well, id rather make other people happy then me, cuz honestly, i dont think i deserve 2 be happy. and i deserve 2 be alone, and i deserve 2 be heartbroken, and i deserve all thats coming 2 me.
well i got 2 neckless's 2day, i dont know if i spelled it rite or not. but yeah theyre cool and yeah i didnt need 2 put that in but i did neway.i needed 2 get some new 1s cuz ilana still has all my jewerly lol.
i needa talk 2 lauren bout some shit thats getting me upset, i think thatll make me feel better.and with that, im off. goodbye.