i kinda want this... actually, i really want this. dammit.
Nice Girls Finish Last... -To every girl who is looking for true love. -To every girl that is herself no matter what. -To every girl that dresses cute not skanky -To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not hot. -To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect birthday present for you. -To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose the whore instead. -To every girl who is nice to everyone no matter who they are. -To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend. -To every girl that wont settle for the jerk. -To every girl who would just like once to be treated like a princess. -To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak. -To every girl that wont get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend. -To every girl that just wants to holds hands. -To every girl that kisses him with meaning. -To every girl who just wishes he cared. -To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold. -To every girl who just wants him to call. -To every girl who wastes her day waiting by the phone. -To every girl that just wants to cuddle. -To every girl that just wants to sleep (no sex) with him. -To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because she has been hurt so many times. -To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back. -To every girl that thought maybe this could be the one. -To every girl that believes in her dreams. -To every girl that would do anything so she could achieve them. -To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually does think it is funny. -To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way. -To every girl that gave her heart only to have it shoved back in her face I feel like I deserve that. I mean, at least some of it. I've been with some really great guys but they just lacked certain qualities I want. I never really considered myself picky, but it just sucks to really get your hopes up about someone and then in a moment, you realize that this person could never make you happy as much as he tries to.. I got my heart broken cuz he chose this whore over me. But I guess I deserved it. You should only play hard to get to a certain extent. I think I overdid it. But whatever. I shouldn't even be worrying about this stuff.
I have finals to think about. And then an entire month off to be lonely and sad and depressed and to think about the fact that I've somehow managed to ALWAYS be alone for Christmas...Thanksgiving...even Valentine's Day. I had a Valentine once.. sorta. Shawn. But that doesn't count cuz that whole thing was crap. I got to see the real him this year and that whole thing was a real eye-opener. Taz promised me he'd be my Valentine before I ever even realized I had feelings for him. Ugh. How much does my life suck right now? Being alone sucks.... I miss my best friend. And the Raggedies- my other best friends. You guys make me happy :-D