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[sluice]

In the new year I want to never think about my weight
Or my hair
Or my skin

I want to stop giving energy to how I look

I want to pull back the forever obsession of how my career looks

How my house looks

I want to smile at strangers because I am happy to see them

I want to wear shorts and show my hairy legs and tank tops to show my hairy armpits

I want the ballad of the fuckable to end forever

I want wrinkles to bloom on my cheeks and my eye creases

I want to sweat because it feels good to sweat

I want to dance because it feels good to dance

I don't want to think about my body as it pertains to everyone else, any more

Look I was born 95 years old, I've been ancient my whole life and stuffed into this eyeliner existence and listen if you like eyeliner you fucking like eyeliner ok

But I'm tired of it man

I'm not that woman

This year I just want to be well and be able to observe my surroundings without thinking about how I'm being observed

I was born a woman

And have never heard the end of it

And I'm done.