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This marriage thing has been a kick
Already
I mean the best way to discover who your real friends are
Is to catch who is asking to help
And who is saying oh I don't know if I can make it to this or that
Who is excited
Who is silent
Who you want to see there and who would cause you stress
And I'm blessed
Because I have long held contracts with people I deemed family
Who showed me what they will always be as this has gotten closer
And it has been so validating to just say ok
Well thank you for your time
But we are done here
It's a kick
Because I don't come from people who really, I mean really, had my back
So it is what it is
That I don't have a great concept of what that looks like
But I'm marrying right
The right person
The right time
The right way
And I can just lay everything else against it
And boom
Voila
I see so clearly
Man I thought this was pink
Turns out it's Brown polka dot
Not a good look
Bye
I'm even dreaming of it
Leaving a house
Driving away
I've broken ties with those who for whatever sad reason
Could not be bothered with me
And bam
Pow
Here I am
With so much to give
Because I know now what I can take