oh shit.
wow. everything was going great. i mean, i was happy and excited to go back to my new school. now everything is ruined. and i cant believe i have to fucking go through this. i cant fucking believe it.
erica got into central too. what the fuckk. now every person that i thought i could be friends with is ruined cuz she either knows them or will be their friend. except i know allyssa & erica and ashley will be there for me. but i mean, who wants just 3 friends? shit. im like about to cry. i cant stand this. why does shit have to end up like this? why did we have to fight? why couldnt we just get over it? WHY? i just dont fucking understand. and shits too bad to just patch up and go on... i dont know anymore.
i think i might cut myself again. i cant stand this. im so strssed out. im not pretty enough, im not happy enough, im not talkative enough, im never good enough for anything i do. and god just has to fuck with my life, right. fuckk.
yesterday i went to central and got my id. i was walking through the halls and i decided to myself that i didnt like this school. there was something about it. come to find out today, now i know why!!!!!!! jesus.
i finished shopping yesterday. i babysat. i got this cute shirt but its like a halter top. do they let people where halter tops in school? i wanna wear it the 1st day.
im shaking. i never shake.
im nervous. im scared. im sad. all i want to do is cry. but i cant. i just cant. its time to go take those pills again.
fuck life.
erica got into central too. what the fuckk. now every person that i thought i could be friends with is ruined cuz she either knows them or will be their friend. except i know allyssa & erica and ashley will be there for me. but i mean, who wants just 3 friends? shit. im like about to cry. i cant stand this. why does shit have to end up like this? why did we have to fight? why couldnt we just get over it? WHY? i just dont fucking understand. and shits too bad to just patch up and go on... i dont know anymore.
i think i might cut myself again. i cant stand this. im so strssed out. im not pretty enough, im not happy enough, im not talkative enough, im never good enough for anything i do. and god just has to fuck with my life, right. fuckk.
yesterday i went to central and got my id. i was walking through the halls and i decided to myself that i didnt like this school. there was something about it. come to find out today, now i know why!!!!!!! jesus.
i finished shopping yesterday. i babysat. i got this cute shirt but its like a halter top. do they let people where halter tops in school? i wanna wear it the 1st day.
im shaking. i never shake.
im nervous. im scared. im sad. all i want to do is cry. but i cant. i just cant. its time to go take those pills again.
fuck life.