i'm almost drowning in her sea
well now it's way too late for me to still be up in my current sick state, but i cannot sleep so i have taken a druggie benadryl that i'm sure will knock me off my fucking feet in a quarter of an hour or so. i'm feeling that losing the coordination thing already. but i seriously couldn't sleep and my nose is so stuffy that i can't breathe, so i figure why not give in to the chloroform. i drew three more comics tonight, two of them sad and sort of scary and one of them about ben, and so it is beautiful and happy. i like that one best and i spent a lot of time on it. it's called "after dreaming of ben folds," and the drawing is of me sleeping in my bed, with this blanket around me that's transcribed with the notes to "evaporated," just covering it. it's really amazing looking i think. next time i see him i will bring it to him. oh god i wish this stupid medicine would work faster. i'm starting to get sleepy but i still can't breathe. rosemary is going to be in birch run shopping with her cousins in the morning and she said that they were going to stop by. that makes me happy; i am tired of being lonely all the time... well, i can't exactly be lonely with dan around, but it's different than having grrls to gossip with and be crazy. ok am starting to bite inside of own cheek maybe medicine is working faster than i thoguht... o h my i'm making lots of typos too bu t i don't really want to fix them noww. ok perhaps ytime to go t bbed now. goodnight.