Hating life
I cant stop feeling like crap…im not with Melanie but at the same time when she goes out with other guys it drives me nuts…I talked to her about it today and she just seems to care less about how I feel…there are other girls out there who want to talk to me all the time, love to have conversations with me, are attractive and would like me for me. It just doesn’t seem to be working with Melanie and im tired of feeling like shit all the time. I get lonely easily and constantly think about her…it sucks and im out of this shit…I cant be friends with her, I cant be anything with her. I just wish she would disappear from my life and pretend she never met me…anyways I need to go eat at the grill…later on ill be with Ashton and some other friends at the country club eating…holla at my cell if you wanna hang out later…but in the mean time…call me, text me, do something so I don’t feel like shit anymore. I mean it seems like she has tons of people there for her because she doesn’t really even like talking to me anymore…that’s fine…I just wish I didn’t pour my whole heart out to her.