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"Affection is like air to you - you need to give and receive it to survive."
...according to some stupid online quiz i took. i know, i know who believes this shit but some of them really seem to apply, at least the astrological ones, and i have been drowning lately.
when was the last time any of you saw me truly happy?
happy as in, not depressed, not feeling shitty, not wanting to puke all the time, not wanting to drink all the time.
happy as in, my chest doesn't palpitate and im not bitching about my shitty health - mental and physical.
its lame, i feel like ass, and i bitch about it, then get paranoid and apologize to my friends and think they dont wanna be around me b/c i complain all the time - which makes me feel more shitty, heh. you dont have to tell me, i know im nutty.
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i need to make a change. this lasts longer and hits harder every time it happens. but im terrified of medication. yoga or tai chi, anyone? i think im taking a class. im also going to a 2 hr seminar in the beginning of february about healing energy. it looks cool for $5, if my schedule permits. let me know if any of you are interested. i think i need another xanax now.
...according to some stupid online quiz i took. i know, i know who believes this shit but some of them really seem to apply, at least the astrological ones, and i have been drowning lately.
when was the last time any of you saw me truly happy?
happy as in, not depressed, not feeling shitty, not wanting to puke all the time, not wanting to drink all the time.
happy as in, my chest doesn't palpitate and im not bitching about my shitty health - mental and physical.
its lame, i feel like ass, and i bitch about it, then get paranoid and apologize to my friends and think they dont wanna be around me b/c i complain all the time - which makes me feel more shitty, heh. you dont have to tell me, i know im nutty.
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i need to make a change. this lasts longer and hits harder every time it happens. but im terrified of medication. yoga or tai chi, anyone? i think im taking a class. im also going to a 2 hr seminar in the beginning of february about healing energy. it looks cool for $5, if my schedule permits. let me know if any of you are interested. i think i need another xanax now.