Say goobye
What Classic Movie Are You?
Take a bow, the night is over - This masquerade is getting older
Light are low, the curtains down - There's no one here
{There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd}
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around {no one around}
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
{One lonely star you don't know who you are}
Chorus:
I've always been in love with you {always with you}
I guess you've always known it's true {you know it's true}
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good - bye
Say good - bye {bye bye}, say good - bye
Make them laugh, it comes so easy - When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart {breaking my heart}
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
{Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown}
Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played {role that you played}
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
{One lonely star and you don't know who you are}
(chorus, repeat)
Say good - bye {bye bye}, say good - bye
All the world is a stage {world is a stage}
And everyone has their part {has their part}
But how was I to know which way the story'd go
How was I to know you'd break
{You'd break, you'd break, you'd break} - You'd break my heart
I've always been in love with you
{I've always been in love with you} - Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why - The show is over, say good - bye
(chorus)
Say good - bye {bye bye}, say good - bye
Say good - bye
Song of the Soul
In the depth of my soul there is
A wordless song - a song that lives
In the seed of my heart.
It refuses to melt with ink on
Parchment; it engulfs my affection
In a transparent cloak and flows,
But not upon my lips.
How can I sigh it? I fear it may
Mingle with earthly ether;
To whome shall I sing it? It dwells
In the house of my soul, in fear of
Harsh ears.
When I look into my inner eyes
I see the shadow of its shadow;
When I touch my fingertips
I feel its vibrations.
The deeds of my hands heed its
Presence as a lake must reflect
The glittering stars; my tears
Reveal it, as bright drops of dew
Reveal the secret of a withering rose.
It is a song composed by contemplation,
And published by silence,
And shunned by clamour,
And folded by truth,
And repeated by dreams,
And understood by love,
And hidden by awakening,
And sung by the soul.
It is the song of love;
What Cain or Esau could sing it?
It is more fragrant than jasmine;
What voice could enslave it?
It is heartbound, as a virgin's secret;
What string could quiver it?
Who dares unite the roar of the sea
And the singing of the nightingale?
Who dares compate the shrieking tempest
To the sigh of an infant?
Who dares speak aloud the words
Intended for the heart to speak?
What human dares sing in voice
The song of God?
So I suppose I mask my feelings most of the time. Im still numb, but Im waiting for this all to hit me. I have to say goodbye today. Even in his sickest, he still was part of the glue that held our family together. He was our rock. And now our rock has been washed away from beneath us. He no longer lifts us up. But hopefully his memory will hold us together. And that we can put our human grief away and celebrate with him. His life and his love for us. I hope he took me to heaven with him as a little girl. I hope thats how he looks at me. And my cousins too. That way he can take us while our eyes were open. And up there I hope Sarah and I are sitting on his knees and our little front teeth are missing, and our knees are skinned. I hope he took Grandma with him on their wedding day, when his hands were shaking and she was promising her life to him. I hope he's in heaven in his navy uniform. Right by God's Ocean. That's where his heart is. The ocean. Vast and changing but always the same. Just like him. Always the same deep water and blue eyes. He was so strong. But there is no need for strength in heaven. Except to push us on our swings and hold grandma tight. Im going to miss him. I love him so much.