Nov 06, 2003 12:21
ritz are your shortcut to hospitality.
this song reminds me of grocery shopping.
so when the kissing gets kinda rough and everything is kinda rough and i'm still not feeling great and you've got a new haircut, i just don't know...
i know i got up to pee and started crying. then i got back into bed and he asked what was wrong. at that point, i couldn't pinpoint any feeling at all. i apologized for being difficult. he said no one is easy.
cut to us sleeping, or trying. i woke up 3 times from the baseboard heater's ticking metallic sounds. he didn't sleep at all but he also decided to go cold turkey last night. i don't know how to be supportive when you're trying to quit smoking and cutting your hair all in the same week. we went for thai earlier and he was very disappointed i've never voted. he also thought that my feelings about train wrecks and my willingness to help people was some sort of flaw. i told him i like to help, i just never imagine it does any good.
he must think i'm trying to change him. and i am. i never planned on dating a guy with a pack a day habit. that's it and it serves him more than it serves me. he'll get more out of it than myself in the future. so if i'm honest about hating cigarette smoke and that forces your hand, is that "manipulation"?
he made me come with his tongue last night for the first time. we've had a breakthrough.